Average (Lesbian Story)

Chapter Thirteen

That night when I walked home, all I wanted to do was be alone, and so the walk wasn't so bad, considering when I get back to my house Liana will have her friends over. They all hate me, and she's mad so, I think that locking myself in a bed room won't be so bad. I was at the edge of my driveway and I could see them, all of them sitting in the living room sitting in a circle. I guess that ruins my plan of slipping in with out then noticing me.

        I stepped through the doorway and tried to ignore the stares, but I was stopped by one of the girls I always see around my sister, I know her as Kate, "Hey, don't you like have a thing for girls," she called out and I stopped and turned my head towards her. I nodded, and made to leave but was stopped again, "Where are you going?", the same girl asked.

        "Um, I just, uh got off of work, and I uh, was just going to go upstairs," I said looking down.

        "Well you should go like change and then hang out with us," she insisted.

        "I don't know, I'm pretty tired, and I've got to be somewhere in the morning," I said trying to get out of it, though I did have plans for the next morning, I was going to meet Nichole's friend, Lenna, at a cafe at nine. 

        "Well, what if I promise not to keep you up late," Kate challenged.

        "Um, I guess I could hang out for a bit," I said in a hesitant voice. 

        "Great, this'll be fun," she said with a wink. A wink? Oh. A wink.

        I took my time upstairs, dreading what is to come in the living room. I don't even know what were supposed to do, play truth or dare, we aren't in middle school anymore. They're all friends down there so, they obviously won't have a problem letting secrets fall from their mouth, like some sort of waterfall, of truth. I on the other hand, have been tormented by these people for years, I don't want to say anything critical.

        I texted Kendall, Nichole and Jenna to come over as fast as they could because my house was full of my sisters friends and I was uncomfortable. They all responded with different versions of 'on my way.'

I entered the room, and looked at them, the same girl as earlier head snapped up when she heard me. "You can sit next to me if you want.," she offered.

        "Oh, Alright thanks," I mumbled out.

        "I'm Kate." She held out her hand to me, and I looked at it for a moment before taking it. I don't bother telling her that I've met her many times before, this is the first time she seems to be really paying attention to what I'm saying.

        "Samantha," I say not looking up.

        "I know who you are, everyone knows who you are now,"  Kate says as she smiles at me. The word now feels like a punch to the stomach. Was I really that insignificant that people had I had known for years and went to school with only knew me as the girl they picked on for no reason, or Liana's sister. Only now that I've done something that interests them or goes against what they say the social norm is, they even care to know my name.

        "Yeah, I guess." I can feel the Liana's glare even though I can't see her, I feels like fire. I imagine her following me out of the room, and hurting me again, telling me to be quite, to leave and not to talk to her friends. I imagine her throwing me to the ground, and walking out, but looking back and telling me how disgusting I am, then finally walking out, leaving me on the floor to cry and clean myself up. "What are we going to do?" I ask trying to break the ice and the awkward silence.

"Well, is their anything specific that you wanted to do?" Maria, a girl sitting across form me asks in a polite voice. 

        I shake my head, then think about it and say, "I don't really know much about most of you, so an ice-breaker might be suitable."