And Then the Light Fell

The Beginning

I think it's starting; I think time is starting to blur, I think time is over. Everything becomes nothing, and nothing stays nothing. Blue is becoming purple as yellow switches to red. Emotions collide and then dissipate into thin air. Nothing is the same as it was before, and nothing will be the same again.

Emotions are a tool that people use to get through life. Happiness eases the pain of having to wake up at 5:30 on a Saturday morning to get ready for work. Sadness, on the other hand, can be a constant reminder of the lack of social plans you have on a Friday night. These two emotions -happiness and sadness- trick our cognitive functions to perform physical and physiological movements that help keep our bodies alive.

Imagine this: a constant feeling of neutrality. Neutrality working as a blank state of being that controls if you live or die at any given moment. Sometimes there may be random bursts of, say, happiness and sadness, but these bursts are strong and dangerous. Going from having no emotion to suddenly having either the best moment of your life, or, the moment in which you may end it. These two extremes are only a fraction of what living in varying states of neutrality is like.

Neutrality isn't what drove me insane. It was the blanks in between that smothered the light.