Friend, Please (Josh)

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by joshlerislyf3

by joshlerislyf3

I need to know that Tyler is okay. Usually twice a day I come and check on Tyler because I know I can't leave him alone with his thoughts. I've been away all weekend and I worry that I may have left him for too long. I enter our house and knock on Tyler's bedroom door. "Just a minute," he says. I stand by the door for a few seconds before he opens his door to let me in. He sits down on his bed not looking directly at me. "Tyler, are you okay?" I ask with a calm voice. I'm a bit worried but I don't show it because I know if something is wrong, he will feel guilty for worrying me. He grabs my hand and looks me in the eyes. "Josh, I-" he stammers, "I'm sorry." He cries and buries his face in my shoulder. I feel like I'm going to cry but I hold it in because I need to stay strong for Tyler. I hug him, slowly stroking his back and saying, "Shh, it's okay. It's okay, Tyler."

Tyler is still asleep when I wake up and that's when I realise his cheek is resting on my chest. I run my fingers through his hair and cry. He doesn't deserve this. He never deserved any of this. He's too good a person to be in this much pain. I wipe the tears from my face knowing he could wake at any moment. I slide a pillow under Tyler's head and walk to the window. Tyler yawns and I instantly turn to face him. He looks up at me with a tired face which quickly turns to disappointment. "What is it, Tyler?" I ask.
"Josh, I failed. I've failed. I couldn't do it," he cries. I place my hand on his cheek and look into his eyes.
"Tyler, you made it 3 whole months. I am so, so proud of you for making it that far. We'll get through this together, okay?" He sobs lightly and I rest my forehead against his. It killed me to see my Tyler like this.

Author note: MY Tyler 😂💖
For the moment their relationship is very best-friend-ish but I want their relationship to slowly change. Ugh they're both such adorable human beans 💖