We were all so close. "BFFs" nothing but a lie. They used me, their lies, hidden behind smiles.
It was three years ago but, it's all I ever think about. They called them selves A~listers, so cliche yet, I wasnt able to realize that when I needed to.
I know im rambling but im hurt, what do you expect, but for you to understand this I need to go back a while. Three years ago I was your average 15 year old girl. I just moved to a small town in Ohio, everything about it was very diffrent from New York.
For starters, everyone knew everything about you. News spreaded faster than the Black Death; I had to learn this the hard way.
It was my first day at Sunburry High School, everyone was so nice or at least they seemed that way. I was "popular" on my first day of school. Everything was perfect. I meet Deven,Clair,and Molia at gym class.
They were the one's everyone wanted to be,and they were talking to me. From that day forward we became inseparable. We knew everything about each other,but I think they knew a little more about me than I knew about them.
I told them about how I had to leave my old school because the girls wrote whore on my locker 7 times. I never really blamed them for it though. I was a whore, I was the toy that that the whole football team could pass around. And it hurts me so deeply, the people I once called my best friends wouldnt give a crap if I was dead or not.
It first started when I went to Molia's birthday party.Her parents weren't home. I think I drank about four shots.I even let one of Deven's friends Ean take a body shot off of me.
Afterwards he led me upstairs to what I think was a guest room.I didn't say a word until he took off his blue jeans."What the hell do you think your doing."I said.
"Come on Sarah stop playing games,I herd about your reputation."
"What reputation. I don't know what your talking about." I felt knots forming in my stomache.Who told him?
I went back downstairs and pretended that never happened. With in about 45 minutes Ean approached me he was really drunk.
"Come on Maria," he slurred, and
grabbed my wrist tightly.
"No, stop it your hurting me!" He ignored me and pulled me back into a room and locked the doors. The walls were pink this must be Molias room I thought.
"Ean what are you doing? I need to go!" I shouted. He ignored me and tightened his grip on my wrist. He threw me onto the bed and tried to take my pants off. That's when I punched him.
"You must be crazy," he said with a snicker and he reached for my shirt. I broke free and my top ripped.I left it there and ran out I was greeted by Molia.
"What the fuck did you really have sex in my bed?"
"No Molia you don't understand it was Ran he's".... she cut me off.
"Your such a whore Maria how could you do that when you knew Clair had a crush on him?!?"
"I didn't do anything Molia and I had no idea about Clair!" I turned my head to see that Seven was recording the whole thing. Then Ean walks out with a smile on his face, he tries to kiss me.
"What the hell Ean! Get away from me!"
"Aww baby weren't this shy back in the bedroom," he says snyly.
"We didn't do anything you drunk bitch!" And with that I left the party.Only to realize Deven was my ride home, so I ended up walking shirtless in the dark. I kept my arms crossed over my chest because even in the dark you could see the bright pink of my bra and I was just trying my best to stay unnoticed.
when I got home my mom was sitting on the couch. Before I could even step in the house my mom began to yell at me for being late and then she looks me up and down and notices I'm topless.She didn't even bother asking what happened she just smacked me and called me a whore.
"Oh, I'm a whore because some drunk guy tried to rip my shirt off, but you stripping for 5 years doesn't make you one?!?"As soon as the words came out my mouth I regretted them. My mom doesn't say a word she just goes in my room and grabs a shirt.
"Out! Get out of my house!" She turns around and throws the shirt at me.
"Where the fuck am I supposed to go its 2 am?" She doesn't answer me, instead she walks past me and opens the door.
