You know the feeling of coming home?
It is the feeling of a tense muscle that can finally relax. A muscle that was tense the moment you stepped out the door and stayed that way for the whole day. This muscle is located on the back of your head and only as big as your thumb. It holds the head up, the eyes open, the back straight and the mouth always slightly tense - ready to speak and smile politly.
With a quiet "plopp" the muscle relaxes when you get home. Suddenly your back is crooked and you stand in the hallway, shoes in your hand and the thought rush to your head. Thoughts that were held back throughout the day so you could function.
As a muscle that was trained all day it is sore. So exhausted that when you finally relax it, there is not a lot of strength left. So without any strength the thoughts that were held back by the muscle like a barrage, now flow and bubble over the spinal cord into your head.
This is the reason you get back pain when you have not been home for a long time. It is not because you have been on your feet for twelve hours or the unknown mattress you had to sleep on. The pain is caused by the thoughts that wind around the spine and can not flow upwards.
And now you stand there, in the hallway, shoes in your hands and all thats left is to be overrun by the waves of thoughts. No thought to hold on to, just an endless stream.
