Couldn't Care Less

Chapter 2

I decide to go to the park to clear my head for a while. I'm just going to try and take it all in, wonder where the hell he went dumb as fuck enough to cheat on me, and since when has he been cheating on me.

"To think I spent my fucking money on him when I could've spent it on food instead." I scoff. Trying to calm myself, I take my phone from my pocket and unwrap my earphones from it. I click on my BTS ballad songs playlist and play Run first.

I try to sing along or hum along at least, not caring if people can hear me singing in another language. When the chorus came along, I also tried doing the moves with just my shoulders while walking. Key word being "tried".

"Ruuuuun! Don't tell me bye, bye. Ruuuuun! You make me cry, cry. Ruuuuuun! Love is a lie, lie. Don't tell me, don't tell me, don't tell me bye, bye." I try to get in the depressing vibe with them, but I'm actually really happy. These 7 Korean boys will always lighten up my mood, no matter how sad their song is. And as I continue listening to the song, I realize that the song matches with what happened today. The irony.

I see the park just as I turn the corner, and start jogging, going straight for the swings. I don't see a lot of people around, which is a good thing. I won't need to keep my singing to myself.

The next song that plays is Spring Day which is perfect because I know some words from Namjoon's part, then I know all of Jimin's part until the chorus. Beyond that, I can only sing some words. Sigh.. I want to learn Korean just so I can sing along to songs and be able to poorly converse with someone from Korea at least.

I close my eyes while swinging and singing. Feeling the cool wind against my skin makes me shiver, but I absolutely love it. It makes me feel free. Or at least like Pocahontas.

"You know it all, you're my best friend. Achimeun dashi ol geoya." I hum the rest of Taehyung's part, because sadly, I can't remember the lyrics without reading along.

I open my eyes for a moment and spot a guy around my age sitting on a bench near the swings, snacking on pringles and coke. He sees me looking at him, but instead of ignoring me, he holds my gaze. I take it as a challenge and keep staring at him, realizing that the more I stare at him, the more clearer his face becomes to me.

Damn. He's fucking hot. My perverted brain starts imagining things that makes me blush, which thankfully isn't that obvious because of my dark olive skin. Freaking look away already! I consider looking away first, because I honestly can't last any longer. But just when I decide to avert my gaze somewhere else, he looks down and checks his phone. Phew.

He stands up and wipes his hand on his shorts, taking his trash with him to throw them away. He then continues to walk away but stops for a second to look back at me. I blink twice then raise an eyebrow, which makes him shake his head at me and keep walking.

My mind goes to what he was just snacking on, and I groan from jealousy. We have the same taste on snacks, great!

Hmm.. What if I see him again next time and he has pringles with him too? Should I just go over and ask for some? It could be a conversation starter! Or would I seem weird? You know what, I don't care. If I'm hungry and he has pringles, seeming weird is something I wouldn't give a fuck about.

I unlock my phone and switch to english songs just because I feel like singing a full song. I play Jealous by Labrinth and close my eyes to relax, but that goes flying out the window when someone sits on the swing beside me.

"I knew I'd find you here." He says looking at ground.

"I'm jealous of the rain.." I close my eyes again.

"Wha-" He starts to ask but I cut him off with the next lyrics.

"That falls upon your skin. It's closer than my hands have been. I'm jealous of the rain." I sing softly.

"Calle.." He calls my name softly, but I continue singing and ignore him.

"I'm jealous of the wind, that ripples through your clothes. It's closer than your shadow. Oh I'm jealous of the wind." I stop swinging and lower my head. The sadness of the song is getting to me, mostly now that he's beside me.

"Coz I wished you - the best of all this world could give. And I told you when you left me, there's nothing to forgive. But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was heartbreak and misery. It's hard for me to say I'm jealous of the way, you're happy without me." My voice cracks as I sing the last word, my tears threatening to spill. I hold them back, refusing to cry in front of him. But I made the mistake of looking at him, and I guess seeing him was just the push my eyes needed to make me cry a river.

Suddenly seeing me burst into tears, he's in front of me in a second and engulfs me in his arms. He pulls me down with him on the ground, both of us collapsed on our knees. He hugs me, soothes me, and showers my head with kisses. But I don't push him away. I let him. I let him touch me, I let him kiss me, and I let him comfort me. Just this one last time, I'll let him love me like he used to.

My tears don't stop even after a couple of minutes. I just keep on sobbing on his chest, snots and all. But it doesn't seem to bother him, instead he hugs me closer to him. I let go of my hold on his shirt and hesitantly wrap my arms around his waist, burying my face on his neck. And he starts stroking my head with one hand, while his other says around my back.

Why? Why did you have to cheat on me? Do you not love me anymore? Did you realize that I wasn't good enough for you? Dammit, why?!

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Ok so maybe I lied. This wasn't a chill chapter xD I cried while writing this :'( I'm so emotional. Plus the song really gets to you.. The lyrics are so heartbreakingly beautiful. Axx... Anyways. Hope you guys liked this chapter. I would really like some comments from you guys.. Maybe it could help me while writing this story. <3 -Jean