The Heart That Was Touched

You were just a whisper of a dream,
A silent breath that was carried through the wind,
An echo inside my heart and soul,
A ray of sunshine in a world full of darkness...
But never did I know you were the reason I existed at all.
The first time I looked at you, I noticed how familiar your eyes were, like I have looked into them time and time before,
But you were a stranger,
A stranger that would soon become so much more.
You made my heart blossom like a flower, opening up and letting down the walls that have always shielded it.
You made me happy,
You made me laugh each and every day even when dark storm clouds hovered above my head.
You made each day of my life so much better,
You brought the sun out to fend away the darkness that concealed me.
You opened my eyes to a vibrant, colorful world where no black and gray existed.
Each day I spent with you, I became more attached, like you were my anchor pulling me back into reality and out of my dreams that I would sometimes escape into.
But then you became those dreams,
You were the only thing I wanted in the world,
Even if I knew I couldn't have you.
I don't know how you have the ability to make my insides melt and my heart beat fast in my chest whenever I see you,
Or how my knees go weak when you gaze at me.
All I know is I fell in love with you and your personality,
I fell in love with your smile and your deep, adorable laugh,
I fell in love with your eyes, which held another whole world within them.
And your voice, your voice is like a beautiful lullaby that I could listen to all day and night.
You have no idea that you touched my heart and soul, in the deepest and most lasting way.
It felt like my heart beat your name, calling out to you across the ocean that sits between us,
But I never got an answer.
You haunt my dreams and have taken permanent residence in my mind.
You have, and always will, own half of my heart.
The world may try and try to separate us and keep us from each other, but I won't ever give up.
All I want is for you to be happy and to live a long, satisfying life, even if I don't get to spend it with you.
Your happiness is mine, and as long as I see you smiling and laughing and having good times, I will also get and experience those things.
You are a part of me, and I know I'm a part of you, whether small or large.
I wish you would open up your heart to me because I would never break it, I wish you'd let me in even though you've been hurt before.
I see how whenever you're around someone, you seem distant and cold, but I don't think you are any of those things.
Maybe you are just lost and need someone to truly, truly find you.
In a crowd, you always seem isolated and uncomfortable, but I see how you turn heads when you walk into a room.
You are amazing, smart, hilarious, kind, charming, and utterly stunning.
How could someone not fall for you?
Resisting my love for you was so hard, like the ocean trying to resist washing upon the shore,
It was futile, because every time I denied it, the more my heart told me the truth, the more it ached for you.
A war is going on between my mind and my heart, both saying different things,
One says to love you, but the other says not to.
Which one do I follow? Which one do I trust?
I never have felt this way about anyone before,
And sometimes, it terrifies me.
It terrifies me because I really do care about you, and when I have to leave you,
My heart will be split in two.
A storm swirls between us,
A hurricane of emotions, each one battling to be released, to be free.
Sparks sizzle in the air, circling us whenever we're near each other, lighting halos of light above our heads,
I can feel it in my gut, in my heart, This feeling, this feeling that is love. 
Or was it?
What if it is just a passing crush, or lust, or something that we want to feel so much that we got so hopeful when we met?
It was like you stepped out of my dreams, out of my deepest desires and fantasies,
And dangling right between my fingertips, right in front of me,
But I just can't quite reach you.
We're a million miles apart, leading completely different lives, having two different hearts that needed different things.
You were on one side of the sea, and I was on the other.
As determined as I was to get to you, waves tumbled over me, pulling me under an icy surface, keeping me from you.
We both were stuck in prisons; our hearts shielded by walls we built around them, our souls just a hairsbreadth from touching,
But yet so far away.
So hopeless.
Maybe this love was a lesson, a lesson that teaches to let go of someone you care about, but should not have. Cannot have.
This was a test that they had to go through, some wicked game that toyed with their emotions like they were clay.
A wicked way of teaching someone that sometimes, even your most deepest desire, the one thing that you wanted most in all of the world, you couldn't have. You weren't meant to have.
I wish we could collide; that I could feel your soft lips on mine and your elegant fingers entwining mine; that I could feel your arms around me, cocooning me like a blanket from the darkness and cold that threatened to consume me.
I just want you.
I know it's not enough, that I shouldn't love you, that I can't fight for you because you were not made to be mine.
This was such a painful and confusing and frustrating lesson, but one that had to be taught.
I know that I must move on since I cannot hold onto the past and what once was, but instead focus on the future and what will be.
Even if I so desperately wished my future had you in it.
I know that I will never stop loving you, and you will always be tucked away in my heart, where you will stay for eternity.
You have been my light and salvation and hope,
You have guided me throughout hard and rough times, have stayed with me through the rain and lightning and thunder,
And you will guide me for the rest of my life.
Thank you for making me who I am today, and thank you for showing me what true, unselfish, pure love is like,
And thank you for touching my heart in the most deepest way.
It is something that I will never forget.