Stay [Satzu]

Prologue

Do you believe in love at first sight?

The first time we met, i fell for you.
I don't believe in love at first sight until that day I saw you,
Walking in the rain, alone.
I don't know why but that was the time I felt my heart beating abnormally.
Crazy right?
But can I blame me? You looked so damn hot
And when you looked at me I thought 'damn those eyes can melt me away.'
And right after you looked at me, the cloud stopped from it's crying as if it was agreeing that you are the one.
The one that will be my medicine and at the same time, my poison.

Why does it always have up's and down's in every relationship?

I remember the day when I took you to an amusement park,
You said no one has ever took you there.
I was happy because I was the first one to bring you here but sad at the same time because I didn't know that you've been really lonely.
Now that I'm here, I will never leave
I will always stay, and will never let that loneliness to be there with you again.
But can I really do that?

Why does it hurts so much when you're inlove?

"Are you seeing someone?" I could tell that you're really angry, and sad by the time I heard that question.
"No. You're the only one." I know I sounded so cold when I said those words. And I'm sorry.
"Lies"
"I'm telling you the truth. Let's stop with this jealousy stuff."
"Then look at me, in my eyes and say that again"
I didn't look at you nor said anything, I just walked away again,
Just like what I always do to get away from you
Haha I'm such a stupid person.
But I now realized why I did that.
It was because I'm scared, I'm scared of looking at you, I'm scared of seeing that pained expression of yours.
Because I will feel guilty again, and will continue to do those things.
I'm such a fool.

Why do you feel pain in your chest everytime you see him/her when someone else?

I can see you laughing to her jokes,
being happy because you're with her and
not being lonely because she's holding you.
I just wish that it was me who is doing those things.
But this is my karma right?
For cheating on you,
For breaking you,
For hurting you,
For breaking my promises,
And for leaving you.
I'm Sorry.

Why do people even fall in love in the first place?