I smile
For its a new day
No tears, no worries
No sorrow or dismay.
Doves coo their songs
Dogs bark through worn down fences
Husbands exit their homes to retrieve the Sunday papers
Wives teach their misbehaving children a lesson.
Breakfast is prepared
My family sits tiredly and eats
While I take my time
Sullenly dragging my feet
"Your food will get cold"
Says my mother in a lovely way
"I ate earlier" I say
Trying to walk away.
But what she doesn't know
Is something scary;
It's that I don't eat
It's a heavy burden I carry
At least ill be beautiful
I used to think
But now I know
Things remain bleak
I never feel pretty
I'm always too big
I just have one wish:
And that's to be thin
I leave for school that morning
Hungry and exhausted
From my head over the toilet
Wiping away the tears in my eyes
I walk on the bus trying not to cry.
Everyone sees, but no one cares
That I am dying, yet they only stare.
I try to laugh like all my friends
But it is getting too hard to pretend-
As I walk to my first class at the beginning of the day
My body falls
And now they see
That this disease is killing me..
