I smile, I laugh, I make jokes, I seem happy.
But, no, I'm not
Never okay, never happy, never there
I'm never okay, I do things to make me happy when they just cause me pain
No --not cut-- I binge
I eat too much, it makes me happy
I guess this is me admitting to it
I write my pain away, in a fictional universe that has people that go through what I do
And they are surviving
I'm not
I'm damaged
I'm shattered
I'm lost
