Why FML

My f'd up passed

Hi I'm D (using a fake name) I look normal and I guess that is fine but I also hide a lot of secrets too I've been so depressed because I have a crush on someone but I know it will never happen and that that person will never like me back but I'm here because I write about all of the things that are going on only to get things off of my chest

My friend I'm going to name her Charlie she has always been there for me for most of my life but the thing is my friend is the most straight person I've ever met she makes sexual jokes about different things but the weird thing is is that she has never had a crush on ANYONE. I'm making this book to write about situations and shit that happen to me in my fucked up school and my weird ass family

So I'm going to start with a few moments in my life

Story 1: when I found out I had a crush it was this year i was having a really hard time dealing with my depression I still am but then my friend always gave me a reason to live. When I fist started getting suicidal thoughts I had just noticed how fucked up reality was and I started talking to her because she had gone through the same thing and she had given me advice and how not to self harm. The problem with me is that I CRAVE pain and it's really bad ( Yeah I'm really messed up) and I still am not wanting help for some reason (because I'm fucking stupid) yeah I'm really depressed

Vote if u like it if not than well shit but yeah and leave a comment if you want another chapter

Btw I'm sick this cold is the only reason I'm getting sleep so I won't update to often yet sooo yeah FML😭
I'll update soon byeeeee
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🖤~~Emo_Bean~~🖤