summer,
Hair gets lighter.
Skin gets darker.
School was on break.
I was free from the girls who thought they were perfect and the teachers peering over my shoulder all the time.
Although I keep thinking about how me and sasuke said bye to each other, I hadn’t confessed my feeling to him but I began to wish I did which Is why I made the terrible mistake of sending him a message asking him to meet me by the abandoned park. It was night and cold.
I was dressed and ready looking like we were going to go on a date and began to regret it.
I was the school tomboy. Didn’t take shit from anyone and here I was looking like a cute little dressed up child for someone I pretend I don’t love.
I rested my head against the keyboard hitting random keys “I’m so stupid” I sighed to myself
Hitting my head against the keyboard a couple more time is had no time to change he was probably there already. He’s always one step ahead faster.
Sitting up in my bed I tried to gain my courage again. It may sound sad but I’d practice how id confesses to him all the time. Speaking to myself tsk I was pathetic why couldn’t I just tell him we were close friend after all… maybe I was just nervous of ruining our friendship it’s been so long.
Closing my eyes I got up without hesitation grabbing the keys to my house and walking outside shutting the door behind me and began to rush there. I had to or else my mind would get involved and tell my body to stop and go back.
To my surprise sasuke wasn’t there yet, maybe it was a chance for me to go back? I lay against the tree panicking in my mind when I heard footsteps and the creaking of the park gate… sasuke.
“You look troubled” he raised a brow. My breathed hitched in my throat and my body completely froze with no reply he gave me an odd look but then smiled
his scarf was just under his lips and his hair looked like he had just come out of the shower it was rather hot…and cute.
sasuke walked over and looked down on me with a curious cute expression “yuna…”
I snapped out of it and moved back slightly only to push myself back into the tree behind me. The way he said my name made me shiver. Rather irritating to cause sometimes I wonder if he noticed and only did in on purpose. With that my face going a light shade of red “h…hey” I finally managed to stutter something out. Sasuke stepped back a bit “I thought you’d left me” he titled his head to the side “why did you ask to meet me?”
I was literally shaking and words won’t come out of my mouth. “I… I need to tell you. I have been keeping it to myself”. Looking down on my hands that I was fiddling with.
sasuke noticed and rested a hand on my shoulder “want to head back to mine. It’s ok to tell me you no” giving a reassuring nod, and began to walk in the direction of his house. “No stop!” grabbing onto the back of his shirt. I felt as if I was going to cry or something “sasuke stop” I said softly closing my eyes and resting my head against his back. Sasuke froze in his steps “yuna” said softly.
Everything I have had bottle up began pouring out. There was a sharp pain in my chest “it hurts every time I see you hanging around with another girl. And even though we share everything I could never tell you that” it felt as if everything froze at that time “I love you sasuke and I don’t want to be afraid to admit that anymore!” keeping my eyes tightly shut awaiting for his reply I felt so scared of what he would say at this moment our friendship could be nothing now if he didn’t feel the same.
sasuke brows creased confused.
“yuna I” sasuke began to think on what he was going to say.
my face was flustered red with the cold and embarrassment “im sorry” letting go of his shirt and rested against the tree “that was a stupid thing for me to do”
it all happened so fast I didn’t have time to think. “yuna I’m sorry”
“that’s all you can say huh?” I crossed my arms slightly watery eyes and nodded “sure” I gave a weak smile and needed to leave before I ended up crying I never felt feeling like this before. Pushing myself of the tree and began running. Back home? I wasn’t sure my body was carrying itself “yuna wait” sasuke attempted to grab onto me but I wriggled my arm out of the braclet he clasped onto and carried on I wanted to be alone that’s all I want… right now.
