Chasing the Light

Chapter 10

That night i stare at the wall, the ceiling, basically anything to keep my mind off my life. I know this feeling all too well. Everyone has felt this, am i right?

That feeling, late at night. You can't sleep but its all you desire at that moment. Your mind to distracted by all around you and problems you can't bare face, only wonder about how they came to exist. Every choice i've ever made leaving me here, covered in scars and blood because of the murder of my dreams and life.

I was living that feeling right now. Nothing felt as if it would get better but I know it will. Right at this time in life, a mothers touch would wash all this late night pain and sadness, but even if she was here she would've dusted me away like nothing.

A silent tears falls onto my pillow. I quickly wipe it away.

I throw my covers off me finally, tired of drowning in my thoughts. I sit on the edge of my bed and catch my breathe.

How did i get here?

I'm staying in the most beautiful house i could have ever imagined and I'm sitting here in the middle of the night wanting to scream and throw myself off the balcony.

I rise to my feet and softly grab my silk gown to put over my shorts and simple tank top. I tie it up and walk over to the doors of the balcony.

I glide them open and let the cold crisp air hit me and relieve stress and old stuffy air from around me. The moons light spilling into my room, being my only guide.

The city lights made the stars hide from our eyes. I walked over and leaned on the railing, looking down at what lied underneath.

I took a deep breath and stared at the sky. One dim star was all i found in the sky.

"Mum? Can you hear me?" I quietly whisper.

Nothing, not that i expected anything.

"I hope you see now that he should've run sooner. Why didn't we? Why were you so blinded by him? Why?" I wipe tears off my cheeks "All you had to do was open your eyes to what he was doing, it was so simple."

I feel anger boil when I think of her but i also feel great pain and heartache. My blood boils when i think of his disgusting face.

"I hope you're fucking happy dad. She's gone. Your wish is fulfilled. All you ever wanted was me, never her. Why? You only got me to deal with now. You want me? Here I am."

I was willing to sacrifice myself to him. I just didn't care, I really didn't.

I knew he was after me, he had men looking for me all over the world, and maybe some here. I know he's close.

I instantly wipe all the dry and wet tears from my face and regain my posture. I wasn't that weak.

I turn to enter my room and came face to face with Aiden.

"What the-" I jump back and hit the railing, losing balance for a second.

"Cor-" Aiden reaches for me, grabbing me incase I fall.

I don't fall but i remained pinned against the railing, to petrified to move.

"Aiden? What the hell?" I try to breathe.

"I'm sorry. Just wanted to know if you were ok." He still held my hand.

"Why didn't you knock?"

"Because i was, but i heard you talking and heard you talking and didn't want to ruin it." He sounded concerned.

I feel my cheeks heat up "Well thanks i guess."

I notice our hands, still locked into place. I also notice his outfit. A pair of silky black pyjama pants with no shirt, like at my house. I feel my cheeks go a darker shade red as i gently let go and keep my head down.