In the Beginning God

8 In the End

In the end God is challenged by the Evil One to let the evil grow or to put an end to the world and still maintain our allegiance. 

For you remember that in the beginning everyone turned to God and that in itself forced the beginning of the end, which is the real case of everything with a beginning; it must end and it must end at least once before it can cease ending, either to cease altogether, or to repeat itself perpetually ad infinitum it would seem.  But there is yet one more possibility.  The possibility it will continue ad infinitum as it was at some point in the first time it existed.

So God created the solution and the alternative, Heaven and Earth, so called because it was not yet so bad as to be called either Hades, or so evil as to be called Hell.  It was a curious choice.  We could be a part of the solution or we could choose to do nothing, or we could actively oppose God and be a part of the adversaries.  The first was Heaven bound, the second was stupid and the latter evil and therefore Hell bound.  But the problem evil presented to God was the same problem evil presents to us all.

On the one hand you can go along with it and oppose good by doing nothing, or by ridiculing it to actively campaigning for evil, and by becoming absolutely sold out to evil and the furtherance of an everlasting evil state everywhere completely opposed to good.  For in the beginning everything and everyone was good and had to decide only to be good out of its own freewill when it was discovered to be a possibility and when the enemy saw the riches of God, he being the Evil One went further than wanting the goodies, he wanted to be God and actually own everything instead of delighting in as much or as little as he could want or need.  So in the way I understand it, he not only wanted to be God and to have everything he could ever want, he wanted everything we could want even that we require to be, to be his.

Ownership then is an evil.  It is an evil that grows.  To have and appreciate something, to have and to hold, is the beginning of evil.  For though it was yours to have in the first place, now that you like it so much you become afraid someone else may want what you have which is to say you steal it from the one who had it as well as anyone you might have shared it with; you become stingy.  Then you see others with stuff you might like even more than you like what you have, and you become covetous and greedy, but in the end you become evil when you are willing to kill to keep what you have got, even if that only promises to be what others have got.  But you see what the ones who own things do and you see how they take it away from each other, how they took even what was yours, and you begin to see that if you join them they may even be in a position someday where they have to give you your fair share which is only what you want.  And you fall in and serve evil, to share in the things of evil, but you never think you could have had these very things had you not owned anything in the first place and just shared everything there was to share.  And, you find that things taken are not as satisfying as things given to you, and you realize that all that you have is not as satisfying as that you had in the first place, and you become poor, always wanting more, or something different.  Something that is your own and nobody else’s that everybody wants but can’t have because it’s yours and is not something that will satisfy but something that will never end, and you will be condemned to an endless desire for things, never to have that you don’t have unless, says the Evil One, you are God who always has more than enough to share.

Therefore the evil grows, whether you are involved with it, or you do nothing to stop it which you cannot do, for you are already too evil to stop and can only hope you will be forgiven.  But who can forgive you?  The Evil One, but why would he?  Anyone who is like you which is everyone, but what is their motive?  If that motive is not to just be as good as they can then they will in fact forgive you until their own evil requires they go back and resent what you have done, or at least act like you never even asked them to forgive you.  More and more, the Earth begins to resemble hell, and the world of humankind begins to resemble the world of hellions in Hell.

God could forgive you.  He does forgive those he saves.  He could save you just like he does them.  They are no different than you are.  They are no better off as far as your hoard than you are and not much worse.  You deserve to be saved as much as anyone else; not at all.  And you have to go admit what even I say.  Admit to the world what you know is true is the absolute truth and there are no two ways about it.   You have to swallow your pride and say, “Yep, I am evil,” and not, “But so is everyone else,” then you have to cry out to their leader and expose your own evil and ask him to forgive you; you, and not your uncle, your dad, your brother, your sister or even your mom or some friend or stranger; you and you alone. 

But you realize you will never be the same.  No matter how you try.  Evil will never look any better to you than it does at that moment, and you will start actually favoring sharing.  Then even giving things away!  And evil will never forgive you what you have done.  There will never be any forgiveness for what you have done towards evil than there is among the evil ones now.  But what do you care, it suckered you in the first place.  You owe it no loyalty as if it really existed among the evil anyway. 

Then just stop owning things.