Freak

Drawings

"Ash Salem?" My Japanese teacher says. I raise my arm in the air, and he moves on to the next name. I take out my notebook and begin to finish my latest drawing, a girl who is free, flying through the sky with her hair the color of ebony, and skin as white as ivory, or as my mom used to say, the color of the first snowfall. I wish she was still here with me in this world. I miss her hugs, or the kiss she used to give me after lonely days at school, she always used to remind me that I'm not alone. 

First and second period pass by quickly, and before I know it, its break. I walk through the full halls, full of laughter, gossip, and just plain stupidity. I put my earbuds in, and Knifes and Pens by Black Veil Brides, blasts through the tiny speakers. I walk up to my locker to find it covered in different colored sticky notes. Some say words like moron, useless, messed-up, loser, mental, and shit like that. I swear these humans are so pathetic. I grab the nearest trash can and start dropping all of them in there.

Some guy walking by me pushes me into the locker and calls me emo freak, and everyone around us starts laughing. I pick up my bag off the floor, and walk away not wanting to get suspended. I gotta keep my calm because I if I blow, I could kill all of them. As I walk up to my class I can hear people talking and laughing loudly. As I walk in everyone turns to see me, and everyone shuts up. I take a seat all the way in the back, as whispers start to go around the room, some saying how much of a weirdo I am, or how stupid I look. I turn my music all the way up, and Gasoline by Halsey  starts to pour though me. I pull out my drawings again and begin drawing again, she smiles as she fly's through the air. Her sea blue eyes glistening. I make sure every curve, every eye lash, or strand of hair is beyond perfection. Then Mr. Edwards' voice telling us that we are doing a group project wakes me from my faze.  I look around to see people standing up, shuffling to people around the room, like penguins trying to find their mate.

I walk up to Mr. Edwards, he looks up from his desk,

"Yes Mr. Salem?"

"May I be by myself for this project?"...and all the other stupid ass projects you want us to do.

"Can't find a partner huh Salem? Here let me help, Elizabeth! Come here please."

I groan as some preppy girl walks up behind me. When I turn to look at her, and see a 5'4 maybe 5'5 height girl. She's a red-haired, curved girl, with hazel eyes and dimples. She catches me staring and I look away quickly.

"Mr. Edwards, this isn't what I meant, I don't want a partner I wish to work alone."  You stupid excuse for a teacher did you not hear what I said?!?

"No Mr. Salem you cannot work alone, now, Miss. Elizabeth do you mind being partners with Mr. Salem?"

She smiles at me and the teacher, "No sir I don't mind"

I walk away and sit back where I was, and continue drawing.  Out of the corner of my eyes i see Elizabeth grab her things from the table she was at, and take the empty seat next to me. 

"That's a beautiful picture. What is it supposed to be?"

"It's a ghoul." I pull the drawing away from her sight. I don't want some bitch like her judging my drawings. Mom thought they were amazing, and there is no way I'll let a human criticize my work.    

"Aren't ghouls supposed to be ugly?"

This stupid human is starting to piss me off..."Everything in this world has a beautiful side as well as an ugly side, its like Yin and Yang." Geez stupid human doesn't know shit huh? Maybe blondness goes with red heads too. I look at her, and she starts smiling like a Cheshire cat. 

"Wow your eyes are so amazing! I don't think I've ever seen them before because of your hair!" 

Stupid ass bitch isn't even paying attention. I turn away and look down. I can feel heat rush to my face, what the hell is going on with me?

"Why are you talking to me huh? Don't you got somewhere better to be?"

She flinches for a second like I was about to hit her, this bitch probably has never had people yell at her before. 

"w-well why can't I t-talk to you?" 

Oh great she's fucking stuttering. She grabs my shoulders, and forces me to look at her. For a moment the entire world stops. Our faces are two inches apart, I went forward I could kiss her so easily... her lips are so far but close, they shake a little now that I notice. I look up at her eyes and see the pain and heartbreak from everything. I wonder whats she's been through. 

Then I snap back into reality. I notice the entire class has gone deathly silent. I take her hands off me as I watch every eye on her and I. "Don't you get it? Nobody talks to me, and I don't fucking care." 

"Hey Salem." 

Oh fuck its Joseph, I forgot this bitch is dating him. Hell I'm screwed. I stand up and turn around, he's right behind me.

"Stay the fuck away from my girl, nobody loves you and nobody will? Wanna know why, because your a freak, a low life, and nobody. Nobody cares for you. So quit trying to hit on my girl. "

Elizabeth turns bright red. She stands up in front of him. She wraps her arms around his neck.

"See Salem, take notes why don't you. Girls dig guys like me not freaks like you."

Then everything goes wrong. Elizabeth knees him right in the dick. He goes down so fast and lands with a loud crash.

"You don't own me Joseph!"

She grabs my hand and pulls me out of the room as the bell rings. We get outside the school, and we are both breathing deeply.

"Why the fuck did you do that?"

"what the hell do you mean why'd i do that? You shouldn't be treated like that Ash! Your a really sweet guy"

How stupid is this bitch? I swear I'm gonna fucking kill her.  What doesn't she get? If she hangs with me she will be humiliated, and will lose all her popularity? Doesn't she want that?