Broken. (Austin Mahone)

Prologue

Some people say to embrace every little moment with the most important people in your life.

Have the time of your life with them before everything comes crashing down. Because by the end of the day, you'll never think once about regretting it.

Right now I'm standing in my room. Staring at my black dress. Thinking about the things I could've done to say goodbye. Who knew my last goodbye of her would be drinking cherry soda on the sidewalk together.

You're probably wondering, who is "her"? Amanda. My best friend. What about her? She died in a car crash.

Her funeral is today. I'm not ready for this. She was all I had. I grew up being bullied. Yet she was the only one who stuck up for me and reached out to me. I'm homeschooled now so I don't have friends. But she was the only one who still stuck around.

The greatest friend anyone could ask for.

I haven't been able to cope with myself. The accident was a month ago. I've just been sitting my room crying my eyes out and staring at the wall. I couldn't eat or drink or use the restroom for over a week. But eventually it got to the point where I had to.

I snap out of my daze and put on my dress. I leave my hair down because in simply too tired to do it.

Did I forget to mention I'm really tired too? I haven't been able to sleep for days. I know it's not healthy but I literally can't help it. I mean going to bed and thinking about the fact that by the end of the day, she's still gone. No matter how many times I would try to deny it.

I put on my red lipstick to at least add color and add mascara to make myself look more alive. I then place concealer under my eyes due to them being colors of purple and red.

I also kinda left out something.. ever since the night of the accident, I've been cutting. It never even crossed my mind until that night. I realized I had so many reasons to do it. The pain helped me keep my mind off of all problems in life, and I liked it. But I have a few cuts and scars on my wrist so I always cover them up whenever I leave my room.

My parents don't even know and I'm sure they would be devastated but then they'll probably send me to therapy or something which is the last thing I need.

Just another problem to deal with.

I don't even have a shoulder to cry on anymore. No siblings. No boyfriend. No friends. No Amanda. It really hurts saying that. I never thought I would ever be saying that in my life.

I slip on my black flats and take one last look in the mirror.

"You can do this. Do it for Amanda."

I take a deep breath and walk out of my room. I go down the staircase and find my parents waiting for me in the hall. With sad looks on their faces.

"Are you alright, Charlotte?" My mom asked.

"I I don't know" and as soon as I said that tears started streaming out of my eyes.

"Shhhh you'll be alright honey" She said in a comforting tone. I don't know why I can't just go 5 minutes without crying. I wouldn't be surprised if I got dehydrated from crying too much.

I took deep breathes and it took me about 5 minutes to calm myself down.

"I think I'm ready" I spoke. My mom looked at me with question eyes. I nodded in return to confirm that I REALLY do want to go. After all she is my best friend, I wouldn't miss it for the world. Or should I say was...

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Looking out the window really helps me think about things. How I got where I am now, what the future has in store.

The trees are swaying in the wind, leaves are blowing across the grass and pavement. The sun is shining, making the setting look even more fantastic.

Today would be a good day for a walk..

I decided that I should go out there for a change. I grab my red sweatshirt off of my bed and place it over my head.

The wind is really crazy today so I put my hair into a ponytail so it won't get messed up.

I walk down the steps and make my way to the door. No one is home so I don't have to tell anyone I'm leaving.

I open up the door and step outside, feeling the cool air against my body. This really feels nice. Taking a walk was a good idea.

I walk along the sidewalk, having no idea where my feet is taking me to. Just admiring the beauty of nature.

I noticed that someone has moved into the empty house across the street from me. I wonder who it is.

I shrugged and kept walking. I hum the tune of Ghost by Katy Perry, I've been listening to that song lately because it reminds me of Amanda. It helps me think. I'm still the same old depressed girl but music has actually helped me a lot lately.

It takes me to another world.

I go to cross the street when suddenly, I see a car coming full speed at me!

What.

The car comes to a quick stop. The driver honks at me.

Nope. Not today.

"What the hell?!" I yell at the driver.

A familiar looking boy with brown hair and bright hazel eyes hops out of the drivers seat and walks over to me.

"I am SO sorry" he said. But I could see the smirk on his face. He was laughing. Oh my god.

I can't deal with these kind of jerks right now. Ughhhh.

"Excuse me but why in the world are you laughing when you nearly killed me?" I said furiously.

"Oh" he coughs. "I'm sorry it's just I.." There was another guy in his passenger seat that he was exchanging looks with. He was still laughing, what kind of joke is this?

"Bye" I said. I turned away from him and started walking home. They just ruined the one time I was actually happy in weeks. Wowww.

"AYY" he said. "Come back!"

WHAT EVEN?

"Just leave me alone" I started to run away. I know it might seem like I'm overacting but I'm going through too much right now to deal with this.

By the time I reached my house, they were out of sight. Thank god.

I walked up to my room to take a nap.

I tucked myself under the covers of my bed and drifted off to sleep.

(A/N : I know this is horrible but it's my first fan fiction ever so yeah. what do you think of it so far?)