everybody dies in their nightmares // xxxtentacion x ski mask the slump god

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     I don't play none of that gay shit. Let's get that out of the way first. I love pussy. Im sure guys have crushes on me and shit, i'm a decent looking dude, but i have never wanted dick up my ass. No thank you sir.

I've had fans try to create stories and shit about me having a gay relationship with one of my friends, but all that shits just funny to me. 

My phone keeps blowing up with messages telling me to come back to the hotel. I walked down the sidewalk and i just kept going. I ended at a park. It was a sad excuse for a park, just a couple trees and some path to walk on to get to the other side, but there were no flowers, no kids running around like you'd usually see at a park. Just the trees and cement. I didn't go into the park, i just stood and looked at it. My phone kept buzzing in the pocket of my hoodie, and i pulled it out. 30 minutes until we had to leave. I took one last look at the sad park and turned around, walking back to the hotel 4 blocks away. 

I zipped up my suitcase and pull it behind me, leaving the room and meeting up with the group of people i'm traveling with in the lobby of the hotel. The sun was just starting to come up outside and i could smell food from the restaurant they had in the hotel. Our manager told us it was time to head out, so we all grabbed our bags and suitcases and left the lobby. 

"X, you know your shirt is on backwards, right?" Ski laughs and walks next to me as we're leaving. We put put suitcases in the back of the van we're driving to New Jersey in and hop in the middle seats of the van.

When i'm sat down, i change the shirt to be the right way and ski looks at me weird. "Whatchu on man? You look out of it." 

"Head cold or some shit." i put on my headphones and start playing music on my phone, looking through Instagram and Twitter. I liked a couple posts from fans and got a text message. 

*New Text Message*
Ski: Hey

I look at him next to me and he's got his headphones in also, watching youtube shit.

Me: Why are you texting me

Ski: Why can't i text my friend

Me: you're right next to me

Ski: Okay but i wanted to say hi 

I laugh at the smart ass comment and ignore it, turning my phone on do not disturb and i try to take a nap.

When i wake up, it's dark out and the car is still going down the highway. Ski is passed out next to me, leaning slightly on my arm. I go back to sleep, and when i wake up we're at the motel we're staying at. Ski is still leaning on my arm asleep, so i shrug him off me to wake him up. We grab our suitcases and check out 3 rooms for all 8 of us to sleep in, and call it a night.

I share a room with ski usually when we stay at places like this, so one of us calls couch and the other sleeps on the bed.

"I had a weird ass dream while we were in the car man, shit had my mind feeling like i was on some shit." Ski said, throwing his suitcase onto the floor and sitting on the couch.

      "I feel you. i have those dreams too." i laughed, also throwing my suit case down and sitting down. There was a weird feeling in the room, probably not from the crumbling walls and occasional hum from a heater, but it felt almost awkward between the two of us in the room.

     Ski got up, getting his suitcase and pulling out a blunt, sparking it. Usually we are non stop talking when we're together, maybe it's because we're tired?

   "Next show is about to be wild, i can feel it man." he said, smiling as he exhaled the smoke.

   "Yeah, every show is wild though. these people get crazy here." i laughed. the silence that followed this short conversation was uncomfortable. 

     It felt like i was going to explode from how awkward i felt, so i got up and walked out of the room. No explanation, i just couldn't be in there at the minute.

    What is happening to me? am i actually going crazy now or have i been crazy this whole time and it's just now hitting me?