ctng on d flur, leaning on d wol, u cudnt see anything cus of d fact dat u lav stayin on dark rums wer no1 cud see u! feet're bended, arms wraped around d knees, head down n u know u feel something's going on and it's not ryt! thnking too many things, hearts goes rapid pumping, fls lyk ur liftng samthng so heavy and n order to loosen d weight is to shed tears wd no apparent reasons, outsyd u s a hapy luk, crowds out dr thnk ur ass is tough,, but see! wn d rum gets dark again, u sit alone thinking feeling d pain!! ur hurting, ur bleeding!!! damn! i know how dat feels, i know what it felt lyk to just sit down n cry, drs notin u cud do but 2 kp d secret wthin urself, chrin urself up though its hard yet u got 2 pretend, yih! pretentions! am as gud as hel on pretending! n am already tired! u tend 2 stay cool n front of d people but cries when they turn dr bak. tryin to numb d hart but n d end, 8 kps on camin bak- lyk a hunter hunting you- like a nightmare haunting u!!!!!whatever it is! ds feeling sucks n it hurts d hell out of me...!!!
wrote this, way way back.
^^, #samtukshit
