"You are not my son..." she snarls. Tears poured form my eyes to those very words. My heart shattered. I dreaded for this to happen; for my mother to practically disown me. I stood motionless for a couple of seconds and ran off outside.
"No son of mine will have any interest in boys..." my mother's voice echoed throughout my head. I was hurt; scared. I didn't know what to do. My mother, the woman who has given me a life, won't accept me for who I am. It's bad enough that everyone around me dislikes me for my sexual orientation. I bet they'd treat me like any other guy if I were straight. I bet I wouldn't be shunned. As for my mother, I thought she said she would all these years. I should've known those were all lies. Now I'm forced to walk along on these streets, with no one there for me. Isn't that what almost eveyone fears? Being alone? Unaccepted?
I proceeded to wherever my bleak, bare feet were taking me. I've passed quiet neightborhoods and lifeless animals laying on the said of the roads, stopping at a bridge. I looked at the water below it. There I was... wondering whether I should just end it there. It would make a lot more people happier. I'd be free from them all. I continued to stare below. "No," I whisper to myself, "Not like this."
"Jayden," I hear a male voice call. I shot my head up and turned to wherever the voice was coming from. I saw a dark figure. The figure looked awfully familiar. Through the darkness, I noticed that familiar gold hair, muscular figure, and that trembling lower lip. The boy seemed cold, scared, lost, afraid... As did I. This boy was Alexander; the boy who has my heart... And the boy who broke it in two. "What are you doing out here?" he asks. I wondered the same but gave no response. I just kept looking down. "Jayden..." he repeats.
"I'm alone... I-I'm scared," I barely let out. He came closer.
"What happened to you?... Did... Did you mother find out?" I shut my eyes.
I ignored his question and continued on with my other answer. "Alex... I'm scared of what's gonna happen next... I lost everyone. I lost everyone just because I'm not normal." I felt his eyes gluing onto me. "I keep questioning myself... Am I a monster? Am I a monster just for being in love? For being in love with someone I know I shouldn't love?"
"You're not a mon-"
I cut him off. "No. I can't be face the world. I'm weak. Always will be."
"You got this far, didn't you? It takes a lot of strength to get this far in life."
"Alexander, you don't get it. You're loved by everyone. Your family and friends love you. Everyone hates me. My mother. You..."
"Jayden. Look at me." He says with a struggle in his voice. I managed to turn my head the slightest to him. "Everyone get scared. We all get scared, especially of feeling unloved. It's all a part of life. You're gonna go through that at one point. The only way we could face our fears is to conquer it. You can't hide or run away from your problems... It's just not the way to go."
"It sure seems like it. Everyone hates me. You're proof. My mother's proof."
"No... Your mother was in shock. She doesn't hate you." I shook my head and dropped it, holding back every single tear. Alexander picked up my drooped head. He intently stared at my eyes in the darkness. Such kindness was held in them. "But I can tell you one thing... I don't hate you." I widened my eyes... That's all I needed to hear.
