Being "gay" - (ryden)

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I just moved to Nevada and I am starting at my new school today. Which of course makes me anxious. I walked in and pull out the map my parents had received and given me. I navigate my way to the front office to pick up my schedule hoping I have band early in the day. It's my 3rd period class first I have language arts, then history and as I said, band then lunch, 4th period I have French, 5th I have study Hall, then math.

I make my way to Mrs. Harris's class for language arts. I walk up to who I presume is Mrs. Harris "I'm new, My name is Ryan Ross. Where would you like me to sit" I ask politely. "Oh, yes I was told I'd be getting a new student, you can go sit next to Jon. I look up to see a brunette give me a quick wave and I turn back to Mrs. Harris and thank her then I go to sit next to Jon. He turns to me and says "Hey, as you know now my name is Jon"
"Well nice to meet you Jon, I'm Ryan" I reply I would have liked to continue our conversation but class was starting.
"Would you like to sit with me at lunch" I heard Jon ask me once class ended, I gave him a kind smile and said "Sure"
"Okay great, what's your schedule?" He asks, I fish my folded up schedule out of my back pocket, unfold it then hand it to him. He studies it for a moment then says "Oh cool we have band together so we walk to lunch together and also we have math together" then he hands me back my schedule.

"Okay" I say as I depart and begin to walk to my next class which goes by quickly. I am excited for band so I quickly pack my stuff and navigate my way to the band room.

I see Jon and I go to sit next to him. Soon a student who I unsurprisingly don't recognize comes and takes the chair in front of me turns it and sits down and makes eye contact with me, he has brown eyes and dark brown hair "Hello there, I'm Brendon Urie, who might you be?" He asks me in a confident voice "I'm Ryan" I turned to see Jon staring at me in astonishment, and then heard Brendon laugh, "Well it's nice meeting you Ryan you're quite adorable" Brendon says as he departs from us I blush and then turn to Jon and ask "What was all that about?"

"Well Brendon is just really popular in many ways" Jon replies I give him a questioning look "look basically he was trying to get into your pants" Jon finishes

"Oh.." I say so I guess I'll be avoiding Brendon. I'd like to keep my sexuality private as in just a normal gay teen and getting involved with someone like Brendon wouldn't be of my best interest. "So he's gay?" I ask

"Well as he says he doesn't want to label himself but basically he's pansexual, which pretty much me-" Jon starts but I cut him off "he likes all genders"

"Yeah, I'm surprised you know that most people just know gay, bi, and straight" Jon says. "Yeah, it's nice to know there's someone here who is educated in there LGBT knowledge" I laugh "Yeah I'm actually pan so" Jon says awkwardly, I feel like I can trust Jon so I tell him "that's cool, I'm asexual and homoromantic"

"Oh that's why you were checking Brendon out but upset when I told you he was trying to get into you pants" Jon laughs "yeah, am I that easy to read?" I reply. "Nah I'm just good at reading people" Jon objected and before I could reply the teacher walked in and I introduced myself after a few minutes of talking the teacher told us we'd be doing a project "You guys are going to be in groups and you are going to write and preform a song I'm letting you choose your group, but Ryan since you don't know everyone's instruments and specialties I'm going to put you with Brendon you guys can leave it as just you two or have more people you must have at least two members in your 'band' and you may not play more then one instrument but singers are allowed to sing as well as play, now you may form our groups and start working." Mr. Way finished.

"Come with me" I told Jon we walked up to Brendon who was talking with yet another brunette and I interjected by saying "Jon is being in our group" Jon look at me happily and Brendon in shock, "Alright sweetie, also Spencer here will be the drummer" Brendon told me

"So uhm.. what instruments do you guys play I play the guitar I can write and I can do vocals if no one else will I'm not that good though" I said "that won't be a problem I can sing you can do backup vocals, I can play piano, guitar, drums, and bass." Brendon replied which caught me off guard he can play that many instruments and he can sing I can barely sing and guitar is my only instrument "I can play the bass" Jon's voice interrupted my thoughts "Okay so I'll do lead vocals and piano, Ryan you can do backup vocals guitar and write the song, Spencer you do the drums and Jon the bass" Brendon said "is that good with everyone"

"Yeah sounds good we could do a song I already wrote, let me grab my notebook" I said running over to my seat and grabbing I I walked back while flipping through it to find a song we could use I turned to the page of 'time to dance' and I turn to Brendon, what's your vocal range? He starts doing a scale and his voice goes so high it's amazing "Dang, then this should be perfect it goes pretty high at some parts, it's called Time To Dance, if you don't like it there's a few other songs" I say handing him my notebook while he was reading over it I began talking with Jon only to be interrupted by Brendon's laughter I looked up confused "What is this song "Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off, I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck" it was a song I had written while i was questioning my sexuality and I didn't sleep with my boyfriend at the time and he cheated on me and I was trying to pretend I was somewhat normal "I wrote it as a joke a while ago just ignore it, can you not look through my notebook?" I said grabbing it "is Time to dance okay?" He nodded, and I felt bad for snapping at him, I tore out time to dance after assuring there was nothing on the back "Here, in sorry for snapping at you" I said as I handed Brendon the paper "I've only played guitar with it so we need to work the other instruments" I continue
"Oh guys can come to my house tonight and we can practice you and Jon can bring your instruments I have a piano and drum set we can use" Brendon told me "we can talk more during lunch" Brendon offered

"I told Jon I'd sit with him" I said thankful I had a reason to avoid this "he can sit with us" Brendon said, I turned to Jon and he said "That's fine"

Once class was over we all went to lunch and I awkward followed Brendon who sat down next to a tall Guy with brown hair and blue eyes I sat across from them Jon next to me and Spencer next to Brendon. More people I didn't know sat at the table I just quietly ate my food "So Ryan you and Jon don't have my address so give me your phone I'll text you it" I took my car home out and handed it to him as well as Jon, he handed my phone back and I slid it into my back pocket "what time?" I asked "I guess 5 is that good with everyone?" I nodded as well as everyone else.

I looked over to the tall dude I still didn't know the name of who was talking with Brendon now I heard Brendon say "I'm sorry Dally, tomorrow we can hang out" and 'dally' looked hurt "It's fine Beebo I know you have a project"
I laughed eternally at the nickname beebo, so they must be close and I'm assuming 'Dally' isn't his real name. I look at him deciding to just introduce myself "Hey, I'm Ryan" I say. "Oh yeah, you're the new kid in my history class, I'm Dallon Weekes" I don't remember seeing him so I just nod

"so Ry, want to show my which parts are high in the song" Brendon asks pulling out the piece of notebook with the lyrics on them, so I pointed out the parts, and soon enough lunch was over