Change Of Plans>> Justin Bieber X Reader

[22] Heartache

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Days passed Justin still tried contacting me.
Days passed and i was still crying myself to sleep
Days passed and i still.....love him..i want to hug him, kiss him. I want to feel his touch. I want to be in the same room as him.
But at the same time i wanna hate him!
I wanna be be mad as hell at him!!

Today i forced myself up and went to a dance studio. Everywhere i seen the ghosts of our past selves dancing together happily.

It didn't make this any easier.

My mom died and my boyfriend of 2 years cheats on me.

And i'm so in love with him. Still.
It makes me want to scream It makes me feel crazy.

I turned in music and just let it take me as i recorded myself.

In the end i found myself crying.i posted the video and went back to the hotel.
I finally gathered the courage after all this time to read the letter.
My mom left for me.

I uneasily opened it and pulled out the letter.

Hey there darling,

I'm sorry i did this i just couldn't stand to stay trapped in this cell knowing you were out there living your life. I want to see it all for myself. I want to be able to hug you again it may not be a physical hug. But you'll know my presence. I'll be watching over you and my future son- in-law and my grandchildren. Remember i'll always be watching you. I love you my baby girl. You always will be my baby girl.

I cries for a bit.
Valencia texted me telling me Justin had left the apartment and that he paid the rent for up to 6 months.

I checked out of the hotel and went to the apartment and sulked around more. There was a knock on the door.

"I'm coming." i say dully.

I open the door to see Selena there.

"It is true." She said.

"What is?"
"Clevver news that celebrity talk show on youtube just posted a video saying that Justin hired a hooker. Both you and him are not posting either which is even scarier to the fans."

"Yes it's true...my boyfriend of almost 3 years decides to hire a hooker despite the fact THAT MY MOTHER DIED A FEW DAYS AGO!"
I broke down crying and she held me.

"This is what i didn't want to happen to you." Selena said. "He broke your heart he used you. Don't worry we're gonna get you back together again in fact you can be part of my dance crew."

I smiled. "Thanks for the offer Selena but another 2-4 years of touring won't do me any good because no matter where i go i'll be reminded of him. Because he took me everywhere."

"Ok then um oh! I seen that Dance video you did earlierm you know you could get mad money off of that on Youtube!"

"You mean make dancing videos?"

"Yes! You wouldn't have to work at the night club! Order a high quality camera rent a dance studio and dance till your heart can't take it make a week's worth of content and you'll be set."

"You're right." I said.

And so that's what i did and before i knew it i was lucky enough to consider it a full time job.

Even though it all hurt because every song i heard reminded me of Justin in some way.
But i had Selena to help me through every tear.