Unintentionally in love

Part: One

I have to get out of here I hate it here.

I remember what I said to my family. Yesterday was my 18th birthday and everyone forgot so now I'm going to London as soon as I graduate in 2 days. I can't stand it here in Georgia. How do your own parents forget your the day you were fucking born. Maybe it's because every night your mom comes home drunk and your dad left when you were 4. My life is shit just like me. Another reason I left. I was bullied everyday in high school and even middle school. My name is Kara Gold.
That's me in the picture up there. I love Melanie Martinez, 5sos, Percy Jackson and Dan and Phil (mostly Dan because he is so cute). I am made fun of for being a huge nerd. I hate school but i'm considered a teachers pet.

"Kara" my friend Olivia(Livvy) yells out waking me out of me trace. I had walked to her house last night to get away from my parents. I love her more than life.

" Yeah?" I say back "Whats up"

" Nothing i thought you were dead"

" I am on the inside "

" Your clothes clearly show it "

I look down at my clothes " Whoa don't hate the clothes"

We continue talking in her room then I say "I can't fucking wait for London"

"You can't leave me" she says with tears in her eyes

"I have an idea. Come with me"

"How would I tell my parents I'm moving over the damn ocean"?

"No clue"

"Wow thanks"

"Always"

"We have no clue where we are even going to live"!

"Actually, I have conveniently located an apartment or flat as they call it there"

"Well have you found a good job to pay for it"?

"Um...."

"WhAt!?!?!?"

"I'm working on it"

"Ugh! You are so stupid"

"I try sir"

"We're going to graduate tomorrow, get some sleep"

"Whatever"

I fade in to a peaceful darkness

- In her dream/nightmare
"Hey mom"
"What you little slut" she slurs
"Mom stop"
"You're a worthless piece of ugly shit"
"Please mom stop" tears streaming down my face.
"Kill yourself already"
- End of dream/nightmare

I wake up in a cold sweat.

Maybe she's right

- TRIGGER WARNING

I walk into Livvys bathroom and find an unused razor blade.

I feel the cool metal tear into my skin.
I drag it across my skin about 5 times before Livvy walks into the bathroom and stops me.
I start crying even more and she tells me it's okay and starts to clean it up.
After she finished cleaning and bandaging it up. She tells me to go to bed and she will clean the blood off the cold tile floor.

I fall asleep as soon as I hit the bed.

Kara

Olivia

Hi Y/N, This is my first story so please give me suggestions for this. Dan and Phil will come later in the story i promise. So give me a follow and please be patient.