WHY?- A GIRL'S PAIN

WHY???

Why???? What was my fault??
Is it because I am girl or because you just wanted to satisfy your lust?
I cried, begged, even held your legs to spare me but you seemed to be unaffected. My skin was bruised by you all, my soul was being ruined, I was crying lying helpless because my energy drained with your innumerable torutures.

What did you think of my body??? As a metal sheet which you can go on beating and melting without me being affected.???

Its HURTS. ITS REALLY DOES.
My whole body pained but the most was my soul. You touched me everywhere with your so called lust and need. You crushed me. I feel myself dirty. It takes you just a few minutes to ruin my dignity but it takes my whole life coming from it.

Why????? Just because you needed my body. You scratched my body. You scratched my soul.
You all took birth from a woman then how can you do this to another woman?????
How????

You did what you wanted. YOU ALL RAPED ME ONE BY ONE AND ONE AFTER THE OTHER. YOU WERE FOUR I WAS ONE.
Still you all forced yourselves on me. Are you so much coward???

I was fighting with all my wits, my power but couldn't sustained for long. You torn my clothes and tied me with them. Hovered on me like a hungry lion.
Why????? Am I any prey to you??
I am girl.
I do have br*asts but its not to fulfil anyone's lust. We women's are gifted with them by god so that we can feed them to our kids not to feed the lust of beasts like you.

Why???? What was my mistake? Just because I was a girl with some organs which you find to be attractive???

You all forced me until you all were satisfied. I was going through all this alone from several hours and then what you all did threw me away on road all undressed in a subconscious state bleeding everywhere.
Why???? Didn't you had any mercy seeing me?
Do you do this to your sister??? Or do you stay quite and enjoy seeing your sister or mother in same situation???
Why?

I was lying there half conscious not able to move myself or cover myself. Many people moved from there seeing me as if I was nothing but just a piece of scrap.
Didn't your humanity speak from inside? You just prayed to god for saving me but you were coward enough to not come close to me. Why????? Even if god exists did you see god??? Has he ever come and helped anyone? Can't you think yourself as a medium of god and help me. Just because you feared to be in problem for saving me.

Will you behave the same with your daughter or you sister or your mother as you did to me seeing me lying there in such state. Didn't your heart speak to rescue me?
Why???????

After like hours I felt like my heart beats to stop and suddenly some people covered me and picked me up. I was going to an unconscious state and last I could see was a hospital. My heart said "Still humanity is there".
I got up from bed after a week just to see my all body bruised and outside stood my parents and sister being helpless hiding tears from me. They calmed me supported me to fight back.
After lots of struggle I gained some strength but ahh the society. When I needed them they questioned about my character.

Why????? Wearing jeans and shorts are this bad that anyone has the authority to rape me???? My family still stood there with me. I was abandoned from social gatherings and even if I go out every single eyes either taunted me or show sympathy to me.

Why???? I don't need anyone's sympathy but just a support that YES WE ARE THERE FOR YOU. Society tells I am impure but the one who made me impure are the most purest souls. Why??? Just because they are boys and I was the one who lured them wearing my jeans and tee.

The policed questioned me time and again and it only pained me remembering those harsh memories and I was just being forced to remember it as they asked to do so.