Hurt and Injured (DISCONTINUED)

Suicide?

I woke up at exactly 5:59, a minute before the alarm clock started beeping. I was scared, nervous, afraid, without Ahmad, i was fragile.

Why did he leave me! I kept wondering, questioning myself, did i do anything wrong!

I got dressed, then went outside, 5 mins later my bus came. With a deep breath, i stepped on. My head down, hidden by the drapes of my hijab.

I sat alone, looking out the window. My face, emotionless.

I arrived at school, i had science. We were learning about electrons, protons and neutrons. Half an hour into class i had gotten called out by the office, clueless i took my stuff, walked to my locker, put away my binder and pencil case. Then headed to the office. The secretary told me that Justine wanted to see me.

Justine is the student worker here, she works in the student services department.

I was surprised, why would Justine want to see me? Oh no, oh no no no! Emily must have told her!!!!!!!!!!

Now nervous, i stepped into her office. With my usual happy smile, my usual mask, that fools Justine EVERY time. Well, it fools everyone!

It's so much easier to pretend to be happy, then tell them why you're sad. They never understand.

"Hello!" Said Justine as i nervously sat down. She asked how my campaign was going. Relieved, i said it's fine!

She then said that a few friends of mine came to see her... Worried.
Justine asked me, why would my friends be worried for me.
I said i have no clue.

What actually happened is that, Emily told Justine about my suicide plans, my self harm and everything else.
Justine said that suicide is not the answer, the worst part is; she was going to tell my PARENTS!!!!

Scared and worried i begged her not to, i said i won't go through with my plan, just please don't tell my parents!