Memories

Her

He remembered that day,
More precisely the very last day they were together.
He remembered how happy she had been.
He remembered how happy he had been.

He remembered her eyes,
And the way they seemed to sparkle so brightly.
Her eyes shined as bright as the sun and the moon and all of the stars.
And her eyes were intense and hypnotizing, and they never ceased to amaze him.
He used to get so lost in her mud brown eyes, hell he still did.
They were like a universe within another universe.
They were like every answer to every question he had ever had.
Her eyes were pure and kind.
And he wondered if her eyes could solve all the problems in the universe, because god did they solve all of his.

Her very being seemed to engulf him and his thoughts.
He couldn't move,
He couldn't breathe,
She had him so tight in her grasp.
That he didn't even care.
He drowned in her,
She filled his lungs up and he couldn't breathe.
Her laugh, her voice, her smile, her thoughts, her dreams, everything about her made him sink further and further.
And he didn't care.
She could slam his head against a wall, and blood could be running down his head and he wouldn't care.

He wished she was still here,
Without her what was he?
She made him feel important,wanted, and needed.
But without her he was nothing.

He remembered their last day together,
He wished he could relive that day over and over.
But he couldn't.

Because the girl he loved was gone.
And all he had now were their memories.
But what good were those memories? All those memories ever did for him was make him feel so nostalgic and angry that he couldn't breathe.
He'd remembered all the days they spent together and then he'd remember how everything was now, and then he couldn't breathe, he couldn't think.
He didn't want to live without her,

He would scream,
he would throw and punch things at just the thought of her.
He loved her,
She was his fucking universe.
And now she was gone,
And all he could think about was the moments when she was still here,
But she was gone.
Everyday he would awake from his sleep and scream, because in his dreams they were still together,
And then he'd awake only to remember that she was gone, and he was all alone.
And everyday it killed him a little more.