Tangled Strings

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I found myself crying again because of this fvcking thing. No, hindi ko na hahayaan na sa isang bagay magmumukmok ako ng ganito. Oh yes, other people can easily judge me that I'm just dumb to not forget all of the shits I've been through but if you're on my shoes you can somehow dwell what I am into. And if not, you better shut up because hindi ikaw yung nasaktan.

"Veeka lumabas ka na diyan kakain na." Mom shouted from our kitchen.

"Yes, ma bababa na po."

Siguro tama na yung panahong sinayang ko kakaiyak tungkol sa isang bagay. Nakakasawa pala kapag paulit -ulit nakakairita rin minsan. Inayos ko muna yung sarili ko bago magpakita sa mundo. Oo, mundo talaga haharapin ko na naman yung mundong minsan hindi mo alam kong pinagtitripan ka lang o sadyang malas ka sa ibang bagay.

" Anak, baka gabihin ako ng uwi mamaya ilock mo muna yung pinto may dala naman akong susi."

" Oh yes, dala ka ng foods ma ha, you know what I mean." Pahabol ko.

"Yes dear, strawberry cupcakes and jam, as always ako pa ba makakalimutan ko." Habang patakbong pumunta sa pinto na akala mo kabayong hinahabol at nagmamadali. I silently laugh at that scene. Oh yes, mom you're cute in a weird way but I love you.

Ang boring din pala kapag wala kang kapatid wala kang mapagtitripan, makakaasaran,mababatukan at makakausap. Yung tipong makakakavibes mo sa isang bagay bukod sa mga abnormal mong kaibigan. Ang tahimik ng bahay lalo na't nasa trabaho yung mama ko at wala din yung katulong namin ngayon dahil every Sunday  day-off nya.

" Grabe it's so good to be alone again, sa sobrang saya ko magpapaparty ako." I sarcastically said to myself. Then my phone beep for a text from Drea, my bestfriend.

Drea:

V, labas tayo mamayang gabi don't you dare to say some lame excuses again dahil hindi na tatalab sakin yan. It's time to be happy again,enjoy your life and be free sulitin mo naman yung time hanggang single ka pa. Malolosyang ka nyan sige ka. I'll pick you at 6 ok? See you! Move on na, it's been a year. Hahahah.

"Wow!" Hindi ko alam kung makakatulong sakin yun o nang-aasar na naman to.

Ako:

K.

Pumunta na lang ako ng kwarto at matutulog dahil wala naman akong maisip na ibang gagawin kundi yun. I think maybe Drea's right. It's time to be me again, to enjoy life as long as I'm breathing. I hope it will help a lot, to me from moving on and from everything.

Nagising ako ng 5:30 na ng hapon. "Oh! Sh*t bakit ang tagal kong nagising? Hindi naman ako nagpuyat kagabi ha." Nagmadali nalang akong kumilos cause anytime soon darating na yung bruha kong bestfriend masyado pa naman nung binibigdeal ang oras.

"What should I wear? Dress, mini skirt, shorts or pants?" I exclaimed. Natawa na lang ako sa sarili ko. "What the fudge pants in a night out?" Para akong naging si flash in a minute and ready to mingle with anyone with my red sexy dress. I wear my pumps and get my clutch and texted Drea to pick me up.

Ako:

Akala ko ba time is gold where r u? You have 5 minutes left my dear friend. Hurry up it's 5:55 be true to ur words k don't disappoint me. Hahahha.

*** Peep... Peep... Peep...

"I guess she won't disappoint me." I winced.