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Tw: eating disorders
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So Violet and I have been getting a bit closer so to speak. We have been going out for a month now and while this is great, my body dysmorphi is really kicking in and it's not like I'm unhealthy it's just Vi is so thin and beautiful so sometimes that voice in the back of my head says. "You're not good enough for her" or "She's settling for you." But I'm still strong, I guess. Well until one night I had enough and I ran into the bathroom and then started crying. After a few seconds if that I hear a knock on the door. "It's open." I whimper as she opens the door. "What's wrong kitten." She says as she start to cuddle me and run her hands through my hair. I nuzzle into her and explain how I'm feeling and my body dysmorphi. I feel something wet hit my forehead, it's a couple of Violet tears she was trying to hold back.
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Pt2
Jason and I have been together for a few months now and I love being with him. But I have been noticing something, Jason always looks tired which I get he does work alot, but not only sleep deprived but nutrient deprived. I try to think on the positive side but when we cuddle and that's if he let's me, he's just feels like a sack of bones. Then one night we're out and Vi goes to the bathroom and I think nothing of it until like ten minutes has passed and she's not back I run to the bathroom and I can see her heels. I knock on the door. "Vi honey it's me." I say then I hear her crying. I open the door and see her sitting on the floor over the toilet. Half of me wants to pick her up and coddle her the other half wants to yell at her and tell her how stupid she's being. I go with the fromer as I help her up. She starts to explain herself but I cut her off. "Why would you hurt the person that I would do anything to protect her?" I ask with tears in my eyes. "I'm sorry, I just thought I wasn't good enough for you." I look at her in shock. "Are you fucking with me, you're gorgeous." I say then kiss her. "Thank you y/n." She says with tears in her eyes. I hold her close as we leave the club and go home. When get inside I tell her to strip and go lay on the bed. Then I go over and I kiss every "imperfection" he may have. I straddle him as I start to speak. "Now you are perfect and I love you so much so please don't do this to yourself." He nods as I get off him then he goes and gets dressed. For the rest of the night we just spend time enjoying being in each other's arms.
