THE GANGSTERS NERDY FIANCE

Prologue

~Prologue

Will you believe if I'll tell you that it's better to shut up than to utter even just a single word or what will your opinion might be?

Will you believe if I'll tell you that it's better to shut people out than to explain your reasons why?

Or rather, will you believe that being a silent person makes you even more aware of your surroundings and makes you know yourself even more?

Well I have my own acceptable reasons which can be possibly unacceptable for you, just to tell you about this case I don't really mind. You have your own version in measuring the scale of reasons either it is acceptable or not. And mind you again, I do not care as long as you will never interfere with my business.

For the years I am able to see the world aside from its positivity. Most of the time, I always think about is it really worthy enough to live in chaos, or rather are human beings were born to know how cruel life is, and how things become so unfair which is unbelievably worthy to be sacrificed for in order to have the things you know to yourself that you never worth? Or maybe you do.

All my life, I know I tried to be a good girl with the freakin' hell that I even forgot who I was supposed to be.

All my life, there was never and no other thing became my first priority but everything about their expectations towards me and what would they think about my achievements.

Ever heard about 'freedom but in jail'? That's where I believe to be the second hell of my life, wherein I can even imagine myself standing alone in the darkness.

I will never know the reason why should I live or if I'm even worth it.

Do I deserve to be who I am right now?

And now . . .

I doubt myself to be in this position.

For I no longer believe in myself in doing things which I used to be capable of.

                                                                                                                    - Anonymous