Sometimes, I just sit back and I wonder
I lay back, I think and I ponder.
What would it be like if my life was no longer?
I imagine in my head,
Would they cry if I died?
Would they even care if I was dead?
Then I realize,
All I have is me.
I was put on this earth alone,
And that's how I'll leave.
A couple of fakes and phonies,
And only a few real homies.
But still no one understands.
But see, I have a plan.
I'm gone love and treat everybody the same.
If something goes down,
I won't be the one to blame.
Im gone give everybody in my life,
Loyalty and Respect.
And even if they betray me,
I still won't regret.
Im gonna give everybody all of me.
Until I have nothing left.
Until I'm in my bed,
Getting put to my death.
I won't revenge.
I won't hurt others like they hurt me.
'Cause at the end of my life,
When I leave,
I want everyone to realize how much they took me for granted.
I wanted them to feel the pain of losing me.
'Cause this world is full of phonies.
But when a real one leaves,
Everybody feels it.
And since they are one in a million,
It's almost impossible to find someone to heal it.
But still through the lies, tears, and pain.
I WILL remain the same.
So when I'm gone, all the people who betrayed me,
Will fell the pain I felt EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE,
And wish they could have saved me.
