[{Discontinued}] You're a Bad Boy, You Don't Fall In Love (JSE fanfiction)

Chapter 2

A week later,

I walked the halls of the living hell known as school, pretending to text someone, on a phone which is dead. Yup just great. I am also super tired right now because a certain someone has been keeping me up UNTIL STUPID O'CLOCK, WITH HIS MUSIC! Ugh, I am actually going to have a mental breakdown. I keep walking to the destination A.k.a, the music room. It's the only place I feel, safe.

Once at the door, I put my hand on the handle when I hear the piano and singing. (I'm changing some lyrics so it's like just the boy)

"Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

All alone I watch you watch him
Like he's the only boy you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch him
he's the only thing you've ever see
How is it you'll never notice
That you are slowly killing me

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want him, you need him
And I'll never be him,"

I put my hand up to my mouth, to stop myself from letting out a choked sob. I leave this person and go to a different music room. When I go inside one of the smaller rooms, I grab my guitar and start strumming. I look at my book and start singing out the lyrics.