4 O'clock

almost

"Can we videocall?" He asked me at 1am

My heart was pounding so hard, i couldn't breath.

Why? Why?

I press the accept button and that handsome face of yours graced my screen

I couldn't form any words

You smiled
I smiled

"You look pretty today" No one has ever said that to me

We talked
It became a routine

You made me laugh
You made my heart so full
You almost broke down some of my walls
I almost let you in

Almost
Almost
Almost

I hoped it would last

But it didn't..

And Maybe it was because of me ...

Maybe i wasn't worth it after all
Right?

I laughed at how stupid i was

I almost

Almost

Opened my walls for you

And now

I wish i pressed that damned reject button after all