3AM

Part 5

Have you ever looked into someone's eyes and just sighed?

The beauty.

The eyes I'm thinking of are blue, they drown me.

They glitter in any light. In the sun they look as though I could fly in them. The light blue hues.

The way they squint when you smile

Your smile

The toothy grin that makes me involuntarily grin back.

I haven't seen either for a month

"One month big deal"

But it is

You have to understand I've never gone a day without you

Even when we fight I can't help but feel your warmth

I see the glow of the heart stored in your chest the you claim to not have

I know it's there. It's always been there

3 AM

You fear that time because your brain shuts off and your heart takes over

You are a logical man. Everything has a way and an equation in your eyes. I know this for I have lived in your world for almost two years now.

I wish to tell you of the love I think I feel but you are no longer here

So I wisper it into the air that once was you

I run my hand along that space and for a second I thought I could still feel the beat of your chest.

Sometimes before I leave I stop at the door and my brain stops everything to replay a clip of you

The last memory I have. Well it's a combination of every moment spent together, every text sent, every phonecall.

I don't want to let go but you seem to tell me without words that it's my only choice

Please you are the only thing keeping me here

Please

Please don't make me let go