R LOST MOMENT

chapter 1

"One triple diple shot" here I am chanting the same words over and over again to the bartender like as if it was a mantra or something but the funniest point is that he actually listened to me and gave me what I wanted. Well truly he was the only one who gave me what I wanted and no one else did. Till today I was the girl in school ignored by most of my friends and never really treated the same as the other girls were treated and why? just because I was FAT!, a fat unknown loser who was always good for nothing in most of my grades I was a C and guess what you couldn't expect me to be the best in sports could you? because I was fat and that just ment one thing I was lazy enough to lift a ball so over there I also got a C. One fine day things changed and I decided since i was in my final years, I dint wanna be a loser in my complete life, I mean come on, I was here for a reason. So I decided to turn things around so on my final year I worked hard got an A and appeared for an entrance test, you guys know the SATs and all that and got a good score there and finally got accepted. So here we are I'm finally making progress but today, today was a very special day because today I get to look back at the crappy shitty friends or more like people who never really cared for me. Because today was graduation day and I had to anyways show up just to get my certificate cause who dosent want it. and trust me that was the only way to get it. I decided to do a little shopping just to show of my 6pack body which I have been working out for 8 months to be exact which also included dieting and starving because I was 98kgs to be exact and who doesn't wanna look like shakira. So I walked up to forever 21 grabbed on a blue short dress with some black boots just to look tall. BTW the blue short dress completely matches my graduation suit. So I did my own hair and marched to the stage where I would await for my certificate. So while I was doing all that the most popular girl who in short The bitch walked up to me and went like "have I see you before" and I was about to laugh because that was the first time up close I realized she was just so ugly so I went like "um yah I'm Rachel Hefbrn the one you love to buily and the one who just managed to show you her algebra paper this semester" the smirk and anger on her face just said it all and the next few words you couldn't belive what she said "how did u get slim?" Does anyone remeber the mean girls scene "if your from Africa, then why are you white?" Well it reminded me of that. Exactley just that and then it took her minutes of staring until they finally started calling out names "Rachel Hefbrn" Mrs katesons voice echoed from the mike. I got up to receive it and I heard a lot of gasps and astonishment but just like how any other girl does, shes grabs her award,smiles for the pic and with her self respect, walks of stage, and that's what I was doing at the minute all of a sudden Tyler my one and only crush walks up to me and looks right at me " wow I couldn't expect you to look so hot, I thought you were fat and never gonna change" and that smirk was enough to remind me who I was in the past. I started to regret coming here in the first place. I thought that it would be different, people would would change and move on. But this circle of my past kept flashing before me like a kaleidoscope and I could get a hold of it. I dint cry when he told me that in the first place I just dusted the anger of me and with a stern look in my eyes I said "when was the last time you ever went to the gym, I don't know what Skyler sees in you." With an unexpected answer from me he just back offed and moved away from me. Goodbye Tyler, you were just a crush and once I get to my university I will be seeing Calvin Klein models and who knows one of them will be mine. I got into my stupid dumped up car and that's when I though. I know the exact therapy for the night, so I headed up to my favorite bar. Just 1 drink, that's all I need to drown my past just a drink, and little did I know that 1 became 2 and 2 became 4 and 4 became 8 and so on. Bad luck for me I came here with no one and that ment I had to drive alone. So I went in and buckled up
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couldn't say that I was completely drunk but this drunkness seemed to be more accurate at this point of time because at the time I was driving towards main street. An unknown number seemed to have called me I looked down and I bent to pick up the phone thinking that just one peep off the road to answer the call. But by the time I reached I realized that the goosebumps on my fingers and the sweat on it caused the phone to slip and fell right down of the passenger seat. So then I thought that the buzzing would stop. But it dint, it kept on going on and on but before and I again I though just why not one more peep of my eyes of the road just so that I could reach and by the time I bent down to pick it up. I blanked of but somehow I managed to open my eyes the glass pieces over my head and the feeling of never being awake but I felt so helpless I turned over to look at the car and I couldn't see much just the ambulance and a lot of blood. trust me it was a lot of it. By the time I knew it the damage had already done its work and karma struck me.