I really like this boy..,his name tyler..I've liked him for a long time..ever since 6th grade...
We're still friends..but he's got a girlfriend...
It may not seem bad but it is...
{back story}
This year he's asked me out numerous of times...but he was "just kidding"...but the last two times it was real! The 1st time I said no..but the second time I was going to say yes...but I had to explain some things...but he never let me say yes...
A couple days later him and his best girl-friend were hanging out {pria}...he asked her out and she said yes... I wasn't jealous....well....the problem is that pria knew I liked Tyler and then she said yes to dating him....my heart was broken...I couldn't take it....I cried myself to sleep that night....the next day I really didn't want to talk to anyone....to tyler or pria...but I did...I put on a fake smile everyday until Thursday
{Thursday}
After school that day tyler,pria, and I had a track meet...
I Finally got close enough to pria that I could talk to her
{both of us were heavy cutters but we stopped 6 months ago}
I told pria that I was kinda jealous and I said that if Tyler holds your hand or kisses you I would cut...so I was almost positive that she wouldn't do anything
{that night}
Did pria really kiss tyler?!?
YES!! 3 times...
I told pria I couldn't promise not to do anything...
I was thinking about doing it but I didn't have anything...
{for each time something happened it was 10 cuts...so 30 already...}
Tyler,pria,and I were on FaceTime and I kept counting {to represent the cuts}
Tyler asked me why I was counting...I lied...so he asked pria and she said it was cuts....
*thinking to myself*
Ughhh why pria....why?!?
When Tyler said what pria's answer was he asked me if I did...I said no...
{Friday night}
I don't even want to talk about it...let's just say we were all in tears...
{Saturday}
Tyler, haven, and i went skating... I had to explain every thing to him...I even had to give him my blade in my purse...I about died!..I had a really bad temptation...Tyler knew what it was the whole time...I was kinda embarrassed tbh...
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I'm still kinda mad...but I'm not...idk what my feeling is on this whole thing
