There is so much I wish to tell you.
But then I think again,
I remember. Remember the reason why,
Why I can't confide.
I think of all the consequences,
All of the pain and it splits into me like a knife.
You feel like a thousand knives in my body.
Unable to be ripped out, even though you hurt so bad to keep in.
I want to get rid of you, push you away and seperate myself from you.
But something is stopping me.
I'm so comfortable where I'm at,
I know I'm loved, I know you will text me.
I also know that you make no effort to keep me.
You have so many empty promises that I could thread a blanket with them.
I want to run away, cry and fight.
However, thanks to you, I'm all out of fight.
You've pushed me so hard that I'm a shell.
Just a lonely shell on the beach.
One that gets stepped on every time the oppurtunity rises.
You have made me so depressed, so empty.
But all I can do is just put on a brave face and take it out on myself.
I just want you to know,
Know that I pushed away something amazing for you.
