The journey from incomplete to complete

Chpy 9

Flashback***************

I'm doing this first time. I never dream also about writing a love letter that to a Sir. What will happen after this I can't imagine also. " Don't waste your time sweety... Come on let's begin " Dada chuckle. " Shut up ...im not habituate to all this " I said with irritation.
" no one are expert in writing love letter.. But you are lucky to have me " he said raising his collar with pride. " sorry I can't blame you because of my fate"
I said sarcastically. " that's was compliment or you were taunting. " both you can say " I smirked. " Ohk.. Ohk let's start now " he said offering a paper "

  The love letter....

I have heard about your marriage. I know you are not happy with this marriage and I'm really sorry for not respecting your feelings before. If you want then we can start again... I mean you still have chance.
I won't hurt you further... I know all your miseries are because of me and I accept that solely... Again I'm sorry for all your troubles. If you accept my proposal I would be glad and also assume as you have forgive me....
Thanks for reading...

                       By... Anjana...

I know it was very worst love letter in the world.. See I'm not a person like.  I love you... And will live with you... I can't live without you.... And all, I'm with shy kind in all this activities. The above letter is not written by me also.. I mean it's written by me but not fully me, friends and Dada also help me. Can you imagine love letter by a group... Haha... Great friends I have.
The only words that made me write this letter is of Dada "your this decision will provide life to one person"he said very proudly.
Now the big task is who will give this letter to him umm post man but it will take long time then. How I am, he stays next room and I'm thinking about postman. I can't give it to him ,am not to confident to see him.
" Dada ,I can't give him " I said him so that he can help me out.
" Ohk.. Shall we send it by speedpost , I mean post kar k bheje Kya " he smirked. Wow we both have same brains. " umm no you guys can give him this" I said pointing all.
" no " all said together. "please" I pleaded with joining my both hands " Ohk,  Eli you will give this letter to him, he thinks you are a sensible student so wrong thinking ha... he won't mind if you give just show him that it's from Anju. Simple" he said. I agree with it and we all will leave now. I was second last to leave and Eli was last. His room came in the way... Eli went inside he was resting his head down.. Oh Yaar he is tired I think... No... No... Don't disturb him Eli.. I said to myself but Eli pat on his hand "S.. Sir" how dare she touch her... Wait wait.. What are you thinking Anju... He opened his eyes.. He looked confused and Eli forward the paper towards him. I was standing near the door viewing all these scenes. He asked her who gave this or may be what is this so she gestured towards me and very next second I rush from. Heat rising my cheeks I can hear my heart beats. It's was different feeling that I never felt before. I don't know what will happen next.
          Few days passed like this
But he didn't reply that letter and now I also loss hopes for get him back. I thought now he is not interested in me so I too back stepped. Somewhere I felt bad because I was expecting something that I really don't know what.
          After one month he call me to his room I was hell terrified. I went to his room and he actioned me to sit. I sat in front of him. I had lowered my gaze because it was impossible for me to look him. He called me "Anjana....." he paused I head my gaze "I know who made you write this letter... I warned Dada not to do all this... See Anjana I'm not a person who will kill your happiness...for self-esteem. I can't force anyone to like or love me na.... You don't have to change your decision for my feelings
You know there are lots difference between you and me, our age, our likes dislikes, our choices. I wanna a ask you few questions, will you?  " he questioned I nodded. " Will you be able to spend your whole life with me...?  Will you take care of my family..?  Will do all household works of my house..? Will you be able to share your life with us..?  " Ooh god so many questions in one go how can I answer all this. I took a breath and " Haan... I will try "I could say just this because I'm also not sure about me. I was not able to understand his feelings, he want me in his life or not. Then he said me to leave, all my friends were literally jumped on me to know what happened there.  They all were expecting more from him.
I think I have loose him. Some things you dream but realize late that was not in your destiny only then it hurts very badly. Same feeling write now.
I don't know what are relationship are?I don't know what love is?
You have to accept it Anjana, he is not in your fate. I don't love him then why it's paining to loose him.
      
Few days passed and I accepted it,  now it's like my habit to cry every night. I think I love him.
Now I only need is he should happy. Now a days I love that song
   ....lag ja gale.. K phir haseen raat... hoo..na ho...shayad phir is janam me mulakat..hona ho..