Colifer/Captain Swan one shots

[Colifer] A part of me missing

[This OS is inspired by this song so listen to it if you want, it's an amazing song] {also let's say Helen doesn't exist in this chapter, although I love her}

Jen POV-
It's yet another, prolonged day on set. We're shooting season 5 and in every episode I'm either crying or yelling. We are filming 'firebird' today and I think this is the most intense and emotional episode on the show. I am now both physically and mentally exhausted and anything could make me cry, even my own dog.

I arrive on set at about 7am, everyone else is all happy and cheery whereas I'm not, I can't be. I'm so beyond exausted and upset that I don't even have the energy to smile at Ginny, but she totally understands me. She gives me some coffee and pulls me into a hug.

I think the only person who can understand how I am feeling right now is, Colin. He to has had some pretty exhausting scene, not as many as me but definitely a lot.
Let's just say me and Colin have a special connection, he's my best friend and has been for years. I trust him with everything, well almost everything. There's one secret that I keep hiding from him. And myself.
I like him...as more than a friend.

Over the past years our friendship has grown tighter and tighter but I still can't shake the feeling I got when we kissed for the first time. As Emma and Killian of course. I don't know if it was one sided but my body was ecstatic, sparks where exploding at any point of contact and there was a warm fire in my belly. And well ever since then I've grown to lov-like him, a lot.

I walk out the makeup trailer and quickly change into my costume. I go and wait in the break room for my call, that dreaded call.

Narrator POV-
As Jen was waiting, Colin was also waiting. They had the most emotional scene together today and neither of them where ready. The both had there earphones in and where looking at there scripts. Colin wanted to speak to Jen about something but he knew it was a bad time as she was 'getting in the zone'.

After around  30 minute wait they where finally called. They hopped into the golf cart and where driven away. And that's when he made conversation.

"Jen? Are you okay, you don't look so good" He spoke calmly, giving her a faint, worried smile.

She felt the tears well up in her eyes and she tried to hold them back but it was to late.

"I'm tired! I'm homesick! I'm sick of doing all these crying scenes. They stress me out so much, but then I remember that I'm doing this for the fans. Seriously, for the past month all I have done is cried. And it's not like I have anyone to talk to! My parents aren't here, I don't have a freaking boyfriend, I mean in 37! What am I even doing. I should be settling down with a husband and a family, but instead I'm working my butt off, and getting nothing but tears from it. I'm sick of it! I feel like their is a huge part of me missing and it's yo- it's something and I want it, I need it!". She screamed at the tears fell down her face.

"Jennifer Marie Morrison. You are not alone you have me. And don't say that about yourself! You are the most admiral, beautiful, hard working person that I have ever met. I will never leave your side. And actually... There something that I need to tell you, it might put you in a better mood, maybe?"

She looked up at him and fell into his arms, she lightly nodded her head for him to keep talking but just as he did the cart was stopped and they where instructed to get out. They both sighed and climbed out. They made there way down to this red lit cave. This was where Emma and Hook would say goodbye.

Jen had one last look through the script and put it down on her chair. She got into her character and then they yelled 'action!'

Jen spoke her lines perfectly and so did Colin. Jen bagan to cry her heart out as she kissed Colin and said goodbye.