What the Walls Say

Back to school

Completing high school again.

Tamir is old enough now to stay with her dad or the sitter.

I can give her the life she deserves.

Right now, we live in a scrawny old apartment

The walls peeling

The rats

The roaches

Broken glass bottles on the floor

We can't move.But soon as I get enough money to be able to repaint I will

Then an exterminator

Then continue with my constant cleaning

I will be able to get a decent job instead of working at Wendy's part time

So I won't have to owe my boyfriend

So he can stop making me pay him back to feed his drug addiction

It's going to be hard

But life is

And I just want what's best for my baby.

I love you Tamir!

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School isn't as bad as I thought it would be

It's still humiliating

Do you know how hard it is

To face them every day

And know that they know what happened and are talking about it

All the time?

I don't think you do...

Add to the fact that your teachers have no respect for you

You are friendless

A humiliating example to the masses

I don't think you do...

To have every little boy

Try to holla at you

And the girls

Pretend to be your friend

To have them try to take away

What little bit of confidence you have?

I don't think you do...

They asked me to speak at health

To talk about the whole After Prom idea

And abstinence

And I can't even say no.

But I am back on track

The fast track

Advanced classes

I'm also a tutor

My principal said If I get a certain amount of credits

I can graduate early

Just that

No catch

I don't think I should believe him

I don't think I do...

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Today is my first day at my advanced class

I'm about to meet the guy everyone calls

Mr. F

F stands for a lot of things!