Just His Best friend

PART 1

Sabi nila I already have everything. That my life is perfect. I was born with a golden spoon. Everything is being shoved down to my throat. I already have my own mansion. All of my clothes, accessories, bags and shoes are high end brands. Mostly designer brands from Paris. I have expensive cars. I've been traveling first class. I already have my own investments—and I have all of these when I'm only 18. I didn't even worked hard for these things. I could earn money even if I'm just lying on my bed comfortably. People work for me.

I am Ellena Lopez Tan. Most of the people describe me as the perfect heiress of my parents' multiple-businesses. From corporations, to gasoline stations, to banks, to their multi-investments and to many more that I couldn't even mention because, seriously? I've lost track. But yeah, they call me 'perfect'.

I don't even know what their defenition of perfect is. Para saakin kasi ang ibig sabihin ng perfect ay walang kahit anong mali. Walang kahit anong kapintasan. Walang labis, walang kulang—at sa pagkakaalam ko, lahat ng meron ako ay "labis".. Pero may "kulang" parin.

Ironic, right?

All of my excess doesn't even fill up my lacking.

I'm not perfect. I'm not even close to being one. Just because I'm born rich doesn't mean that everything is going on my way. I have so many flaws. I have so many insecurities. And seriously, bringing the name "Tan" isn't fun at all. I can't go anywhere without my bodyguards. I can't even go on dates! My parents has high standards. They only want one guy for me.. My parents and his parents wants us to end up marrying each other. I told you, everything is being shoved down to my throat. Yes, even the man that I'm marrying. Well, I'm not complaining though. I like him—a lot.

Plot twist: He doesn't like me back.

Again, I told you. My life isn't perfect. Contrary to popular belief, I actually think that my life sucks. It sucks big time.

I can't even decide for myself. Everything is being decided for me. To make it simple: I don't have my own life.

I'm not free and I wanted to be free. I like a boy but he doesn't like me back. And that boy is standing in front of me right now.

Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you. He's my best friend.

"Ell, do you think this looks good on me?" Russell asked me while putting on a beanie. We're at Greenhills because we needed to buy things for tomorrow's dinner with our families.

Russell is the heir of LR Entertainment and unlike me, he likes everything that's being shoved down to his throat.

I rolled my eyes. "Russ, everything looks good on you. Ano ka ba." He just laughed and decided to buy the beanie, handing his black credit card to the saleslady.

"Russell! We need to buy clothes!"

He shrugged then said "Seriously, I don't know why we even have to wear formal clothes. It's just our families. I mean, we've known each other since.." he looked up then scratched his head "I don't even know since when." The saleslady gave back his credit card and handed him the paper bag with the beanie. We went out.

"Since forever." I said as I dragged him inside another store. My eyes lit up when I saw a black simple dress. It's not a fitted dress. It's actually loose like a night dress but it's made out of fine silk. Inilagay ko yung dress sa harap ko then faced Russell. "What do you think?" I asked. He tapped my head "everything looks good on you, little miss perfect." Then he laughed. So I immediately bought the dress without even trying to fit it.

We went inside another men store. He ended up buying an Armani polo shirt which really looks good on him. Russell perfectly fits his lifestyle. He looks good on being rich. He looks so expensive without even trying too.

God, ayan nanaman ako. Naiilove nanaman ako sakanya.

We just ate for dinner tapos hinatid na niya ako sa bahay. I still go home to my parents' house. I don't like being alone in my house. It feels so lonely.

Bago ako bumaba ng sasakyan niya, I was debating to myself kung itatanong ko pa ba yung tanong na nasa isip ko. Ilan beses ko na din kasi itinanong sakanya. Paulit-ulit lang din naman yung sagot niya.

But I decided to give it a shot once again. Last na 'to. Last na talaga 'to.

"Russ.." I said.

"Hm?" He answered, sounding so tired. We did a lot of walking.

"Best friend lang ba talaga?" I asked. I looked at him and the look on his face made me wince. It looks like he pity me. His eyes were very apologetic. There's this total cold silence that suddenly wrapped around us.

Bakit ko pa nga ba naitanong? I asked him kahit alam ko naman ang sagot. Paulit-ulit nalang kasi. Pero hindi pa din ako nadadala. Patuloy padin akong umaasa. Baka kasi sakaling magbago ang sagot niya. Baka kasi ngayon hindi nalang hanggang best friend lang.

"Sorry, Ell." He finally said.

And I just broke my heart once again.

Kasalanan ko naman. It was never his fault. Simula palang naman kasi sinabi na niya na best friends lang talaga kami. Ako lang naman yung tanga na nain-love sa best friend ko.

He pinched my left cheek. He does this to the ones who are special to him. "You are so special to me."

And I just saw a ray of hope. Baka naman may kadugtong pa? Baka naman ang ibig niyang sabihin ay sorry na ngayon niya lang narealize na mahal niya ako?

So I waited. I waited for what he's about to say next. My heart is banging out of my chest.

"You're my one and only best friend. You're my only girl best friend. You are that special." He went closer then kissed me on my forehead. "Goodnight, Ell." I just gave him a weak smile.

I went out of the car and he drove out of our driveway. Not knowing that my heart is broken for the millionth time.

But it was never his fault. The blame will always be on me.

I'm just his best friend.

Best friend lang naman kasi talaga.

I ran straight to my bedroom and there, I cried once again. I cried for the millionth time.

Little miss perfect isn't perfect at all.