They tell me it's not my fault.
They tell me it's gonna be okay.
I just don't know anymore.
My therapist suggests a hospital stay.
I can't look at men anymore.
I cringe when they look at me.
I can't stand being touched anymore.
Even by those closest to me.
This took place back now a year.
My parents told me to shrug it off.
There's nobody to help me here.
I just need someone to believe me.
I still think it's my fault.
I blame myself every day.
Survivors guilt is what they call it.
Constant fear and anxiety.
All I want is to talk.
I just need someone.
I can't handle this anymore.
Goodbye, I'm done.
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Trampled Rose
PoetryThis is a poem I wrote in 2013- when I was first put in a mental hospital due to a suicide attempt.