She & Him

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I don't know what i did. I don't understand. I thought i pleased him. I thought I had given him everything.  I thought he was happy. I thought that he loved me. I thought we were going to be something else in the future. I thought of him. I think of him. I think of him coming to my door and tells me, "Lizbet I'm sorry,  I'm very sorry, can you give me a chance, can you be mine?" But those words are only mine that i want to be heard. I feared of loosing him. I feared so much. I still fear...
In my head he is still mine.
I do not have a heart. I gave it to him. My body i gave it to him. My love i gave it to him. I gave everything i had. Wasn't that what he wanted? Didn't he want me? Where did that all go? Why hurt me? Why would he say such thing? Why his brother? Why did he do this to me? Why did he say he loved me? Does he even know what that means?  In my words it meant to commit yourself to that person. To stay with them even in the hardest moments. To be there. To care. To have problems but to fix them. To respect each other. To hold on to one another. To be happy. To try. To understand.  That words mean a lot. Why use it when things will end? Why give up? Why not