Tuesday, 14th September....
Dear Diary,
I woke up feeling a little sick. I didn't want to go to school today but I had too. I looked at my alarm clock and saw that I had 15 minutes left before the school bus came. I got up and quickly had my bath. When I was done, I looked in the mirror and saw that I looked paler than ever and had eye bags. I walked away feeling nonchalant about my appearance; I have nobody to impress anymore. I walked to my closet and picked out a blue t-shirt and a black denim trousers. I wore my sandals and went back to my mirror. I looked presentable enough.
I took my phone from my nightstand and saw the LED light. I had two messages; one from Neville and the other from Stella (a.k.a boyfriend stealer). I picked up my bag and left my room.
I opened Neville's message as I descended the stairs.
NEVILLE: Hello baby. I'm so sorry abt yesterday. I came over but your mum said you were asleep. So I decided to text you this morning. See you in school. Take it easy and I love you more..
ALICIA: Thank you. I love you most.
I went to the kitchen and saw a note on the fridge from mum.
Your dad and I had to leave for work
early. Your breakfast is in the
microwave. Take care of yourself in
in school. We'll talk when you get
back.
Love mum.
I sighed and sat down. I really wasn't hungry today and I didn't want to open Stella's message. I had nothing to say to her. Why didn't she tell me before Aiden did. I've known her for a long time. We went to the same kindergarten and elementary school. When I went to a different high school, she begged her parents so that she too, could come to my school. We weren't exactly besties but we were really close and inseparable. It really hurts to find out that she hid something so important away from me.
I heard the school bus pull over in front of my house. I took my bag and went outside. I entered the bus, which was almost full with noisy students, and took an empty seat at the back, where I could be on my own. I put on my headphones and played any random song. I wasn't in the mood to be chatty with anyone.
It took 15 minutes to get to school. I fixed my bag properly and got off the bus. I rushed into the school building to avoid being noticed by you-know-who. I saw Neville standing in front of my locker reading another of her so called "life changing" books. I stood waiting for her to notice me. She drop her book and hugged me so tight, I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. She realized me and gave me a smile
"How are you?"
"I'll be alright." I wiped the tears from my face. She looked at me and nodded. I opened my locker and took my English note. I turned to look at Neville, she took my hand and we went for English class.
We sat at the last row. I had this class with Aiden and Faith, Stella's best friend. I was doodling in my hotter when I felt a presence in front of my desk. I looked up and saw Aiden. I rolled my eyes and continued with my doodling.
"Alicia.. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you like that. I thought Stella already told you about it."
I dropped my pencil and looked at him. At the corner of my eye, I could see Neville throwing daggers at him with her eyes.
"I have nothing to say to you Aiden. You got what you wanted. I'm happy for you..please go away." I looked down to stop myself from crying. I heard him sigh and walk away. Neville took my hand and squeezed it, reassuring me that everything was going to be alright.
Our English teacher, Ms.Kathrine, came in and the class began. I tried to pay attention but I couldn't. God please help me...
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After English class, Neville had Calculus while I was free, so I went to the music room. The music room is where i am free to be who i really wanted to be. I loved singing; it helps relieve a lot of tension and burdens.
I was in luck. The music room was empty. I closed the door and dropped my bag on a near by chair. I stood in the middle of the class, took in a deep breath and sang.. I felt all my troubles and worries leave my body. I closed my eyes and imagined myself in a perfect world, where nothing and no-one could hurt me. I was happy. When I was done, I felt relaxed and calm. The door opened and Stella came in. Rushing to me, she hugged me. I pushed her away, she had no right to do that anymore. I saw a glimpse of hurt on her face before turning to leave, but Stella had other plans. She quickly locked the door, trapping me in this room with her.
"Alicia, please...please hear me out." I had no other choice, so I sat down on the previous chair where I dumped my bag and looked at her, telling her I'm all ears. With a sigh of relief, she spoke.
"I really didn't want to hurt you, that's why I didn't tell you. But I never stopped to think for one second, that you would find out soon enough. I tried pushing him away, but he wouldn't budge. He kept coming back with new ways to get my attention. But one day, Faith tol........"
Faith what?! I was so beyond furious and so fed up with this crap.
"Faith encouraged you to go for Aiden. Is that why she doesn't talk to me anymore, because she is busy being a hypocrite behind my back?! You know what, I don't fucking care anymore. Go have a fucking good time with stupid Aiden and back-stabbing Faith. Just don't worry about me, I'll be fine."
I took my bag and unlocked the door.
"Alicia, I'm sorry." I turned to face her. She was crying but I didn't care.
"What you have done is beyond repair. And for that, I don't want to be friends with Aiden, Faith and obviously you. Please send my regards to the others."
I walked away with so much pain.. I wanted to cry. I needed to cry. This pain has to go. I don't want it to have a place in my heart, where it can forever haunt my dreams. I walked to the ladies room, found an empty stall and cried. I can't continue like this. I have to let him go... I just have too...........
A/n: I'm so unserious...sorry guys.
