Don't Leave Me... [JungkookxReader]

chapter 27

A/N
Update finally!!!! SO SORRY😭😭
I know that you guys have been waiting for it, just like i was looking forward for a free time to write it, i was really busy with studies this week, as most of you know the struggle of the end of school year, i have exams, 4 exams and i also have to keep up with my grades, i wrote 3 tests this week and studied for the exams that are next week so much that i couldn't get enough sleep for more than a week, i know i shouldn't be talking to you about my struggles, but just in case you are mad i wasn't updating, i had to write a reason why.
I don't think i'll be able to update once again this week, i'm really SORRY, REALLY!!!
I'm so thankful for you support, I love you so much guys❤❤❤

BTS WON BBMAs Top Social Artist award, well i knew they would win, they had 300m votes, but still i'm so proud of our boys, they definitely deserved this award💕💕❤

Your P.O.V

Everything was going well and after Jungkook left, i spent the whole  evening saying goodbye to the people i know, i also was with Soyeon, she didn't look her best today, after seeing her with a nurse and remembering her week smile, i felt my heart ache.
even though we watched movie in my phone we had a lot of fun. After she left i just called mom and went home...
The next day, my alarm woke me up, i felt great and doctor Yura also said that i had good changes so, now it's school time,
I missed everyone so much...
I got to school 30 minuted early, i noticed that my skin looked pale so applyed light layer of BB cream,
I had a beannie on and it covered the spots where you could see my scalp and it hellped me alot, when i was done looking in the mirror, someone came in, i looked around to see blank Yoona, she didn't even noticed me and sat on her seat, she put her head on the desk and didn't look up even once for 15 minutes.
I heard laughs and knew that it was my girls' so i ran outside and scared them, they had a scared and shocked expression than it changed to surprised one, i laughed seeing them like that, Irene smiled and came up to me
"Why didn't you tell us, you were coming to school today?" She hugged me and others hugged us too
"I'm choking, guys, really! Guys!" I was yelling
"That's for the scare!" Nayeon said
"F you!" I said angrily and laughed, they let me go out of their grips, Jimin walked to us and smiled to me
"You are here?" He asked
"Yeah, alive and healthy, well not really healthy but alive" i said and added "yet" he giggled
Bell rang so we got in the classroom, Jungkook came in, he was a bit late, i smiled at him, but he ignored me, i was shocked and emberassed at the same time, why did he ignore me, everything was going so good yesterday.
He sat with our female classmate and was flirting with her, i tried not to look at him, but i couldn't do without glancing, and felt hurt...
At lunch, he was holding that girl's hand and this made me lose my apetite, so i stood up, girls looked at me in shock
"You okay?" They asked me all together
"I'm good, i just want to poop" i said
"Eeww, Y/N, we're eating here" they said and i smiled, i went out.
I went to my peaceful place called rooftop, i wanted to think about everything quietly.
I sat there, heard a door open, i looked to see Jimin coming up to me, he sat next to me,
We were quiet for a moment
"Why is he like that?" I asked, i didn't look at him
"Why do you care?" He said calmly
"I..."
"Because, you couldn't forget your feelings for him" he turned to me and looked at me in the eyes
"Jimin"
"Maybe it's time to notice, that i've been here for you the whole time" he said and i was completly blank, he just confessed
"I'm sorry" i said and looked down
"Don't be sorry, you can't make people love" he said and turned to me
"But you can try" he added
"Jimin, i~"
"Why can't you understand, i love you, can't you look at me as a person more than a friend"
"Jimin, you are being childish" i said and stood up
"I'm sorry, i can't and you already know why"
"Because of that jerk, who has hurt you so much?"
"What can i do about the fact that, i still love him" i said and walked downstairs, he didn't even stand up...
I decided to avoid Jimin, i feel so bad about what happened on the rooftop, i don't want to lose him, i love him, but not like he wants, i love him as my brother.
At P.E we ran so much that everyone was sweating and tired, we went to shower, i came out of there after finnishing and leaned into my locker
"Today has been stressful" i heard and saw Jin come up to me,
"Oh, Hi" i greeted
"Hi, i haven't seen you for long, were you okay?"
"I was, really, it wasn't much of a thing, but sorry for not informing you" i said
"It's nothing, Jimin did" he said and at remembering Jimin my smile fell and my heart sank
"Is something wrong?" He asked
"No, nothing" i said
"Aren't you going?" He asked
"I...i'm waiting for my friends" i lied, they have left a while ago, i told them that my mother would come to pick me up, i lied to them too
"Okay, i'll go then, bye" he said
"Bye" i said, he left.
after a minute, 3 girls ran from the girls' shower room, laughing, i got curious and came up to them,
"What's going on?" I asked
"We stole Yoona's school uniform, she's still taking shower" they laughed and pointed to the clothes one of them was holding, i got angry
"Give it back!" I said angrily
"No!" They said and ran, i ran to the changing room, i saw Yoona sitting there, in only a towel wrapped around her
"You're here to laugh at me right?"
"No, i'm actually not" i said and locked the door,
I went to my locker and took out my P.E clothes i put them down next to Yoona at a chair she was sitting on
"So you are here to pity me"
"No, i'm not" i said and sat down on a chair opposite of her
"Try, if it fits you, if not, i know, all my friends' locker code" she looked at me and took clothes, she stood up and went to change.
It fitted her well, it was a bit big for her, because she is skinnier than me, but she could go with it, she sat back down,
"Thank you" she said quietly
"It's no big deal" i said and turned to her
She started sobbing and i got near to her and hugged her
"Go ahead and cry, it will feel better" i said patting her back
She cried for a while, then i let her out of my grip
"I don't know why are you helping me, but i'm grateful" she said and stood up
"I have to go" she said
"Do you want me to walk you?"
"No it's okay"
"Come on!" I said and she nodded
"Okay" she said and i too stood up.
We went through streets, we were silent, but it wasn't awkward, it was peaceful...
When we walked in i couldn't close my mouth, house looked like one in disney princess movies, well that's too much but the house really is beautiful and looks like a castle.
She called a maid and asked her not to make dinner, she didn't want to eat.
She didn't talk much but one thing she said hit me like a truck
"You know he likes you, right?" She said
"...Who?" I was shocked, how does she know Jimin likes me?
"Jungkook" she said calmly and looked at me, i am shook, WTF is she talking about, i got blank, does she mean it???
"Hey! Hey!!!" She said
"No, it's not like that" i said quietly looking blank, my feelings were mixed up and i stood up in fear, i don't even know what i fear...
I was in rush and told her i would go, she waved me goodbye and told me she was greatful and she was looking down while saying that.
I left and it was already evening, i went by the dorm where boys live, there was party there, my life has been so stressful this year, i couldn't enjoy the only party i went to, so i decided to go in there...
First person i met was Jin who was welcoming guests, he is a real gentleman, he had a surprised expression when he saw me
"Oh! Y/N! What are you doing here?" He asked smiling,
"Saw a party and came in!" I said cheerfuly
"Great, it's just started, so let's go to guys" he said and walked away, i followed him and went to the room where, about all the guest were sitting.
On that couch where i was sitting stressed out on Jimin's birthday, guys where sitting and chatting, i walked up and they noticed me
"Y/N?" Jungkook said
"Yep, that's me" i said and everyone greeted me.
Party was more fun than i expected, i kind of enjoyed it, i drank a bit not to get drunk and noticed that Jungkook didn't drink at all...
After dancing, i sat down tired and was breathing deeply, Jungkook came up to me, and sat next to me on that same couch, we were sitting alone others were having fun,
"Hey" he said and i looked at him, our eyes met
"Hey" i said and looked away startled from the sudden action,
He stood up
"It's so loud here, let's go to my room?" He asked and i just nodded and tood up, i followed him up to his room, when we came in, i noticed nothing has changed since my last visit here
"I always had this one question" i started "why do you all live together?" I asked and he looked at me while sitting on his bed,
"We all have our own story, let's say so, we all were lonely and somehow found each other, so here we are" he said while looking down with a serious expression
"What about your family?" I asked And sat on the chair near the bed, he looked away
"I don't really want to talk about it, so..." he said and looked at me, i just noticed that this chair was too near the bed and it was higher, so i was looking down at Jungkook in the eyes, i felt heat, he looked away after a second, i could see he was surprised just like me, he then stood up and i followed his action
"Y/N, i wanted to go up here because, i wanted to talk about the huge mistake i made" he said and i looked at him with questioning eyes,
"I'm saying that, i made a huge miatake when i got along with Yoona and all the people who were mean to you, i made an even bigger mistake when i hurted you, i"m so sorry about it, so sorry that i feel ashamed" he said and took a step closer to me, he grabbed my arms, i didn't see myself but i was sure i had a stupid expression
"I was wrong when i never actually realise what i felt towards you" he said and my heart sank, my fear grew
"I never actually thought about this feelings even though they were always somewhere deep and i feel like an idiot that i just now realised..." he was quiet just like me, i was more quiet, because i couldn't even breathe when he was breathing so deeply
"Say something...please!" He said desperatly
"I...I...I'm so sorry, I can't do it..." i said and removed his hand from my arms, my eyes got watery and i didn't even know why i said what i said and what my fear was, but i was guessing that my fear made me reject his feeling... i looked at him standing there blank, one last time before i left the room crying quetly...
When i got downstairs i felt nervous and my hands started shaking, first person i saw and was Jimin, even though small argument has happened this morning, i trust him the most, he noticed me and might have noticed how scared i looked, i was looking everywhere around me, my hands shaking, i was quickly trying to walk through the dancing crowd, when i finnaly found my way out, i ran outsied and took a deep breath, i couldn't go, because i couldn't move, i felt too weak for that, i took a step back gor a balance but i was falling when someone cought me,
"Y/N? Are you okay? Should we go in the hospital?" Jimin asked as he helped me to stand, i shook my head no, i held on his hand afraid i would fall, he held me close to himself, he looked at me in surprise and than i noticed why, because my cheek got wet, i was crying and i didn't even know it,
"Should we go somewhere?" He asked looking at me worried
"Anywhere, but hospital" i said quietly and he took me to a small car, he told me that they share this car.
We went somewhere only we knew.....