Finally Freed

Freedom

    The Freed's premier and press tour was right around the corner and frankly I was glad of it. The hype of Fifty Shades was wearing thin on my nerves. The only thing I was looking forward to was seeing Dakota again. The bond we had was something more than friendship, it was a deep bond that even married couples sometimes don't have. I certainly didn't have it with Millie. Sure I loved Millie, but sometimes she was a bit over the top. That's another reason I was glad this whole Fifty Shades business was finally coming to a close. She could get off of her high horse about me and Dakota being what she called "more than friends" which frankly I couldn't understand her insane jealousy.

    When I started filming the first movie Millie was fine with me filming it. Frankly she was all for it, hell it was her encouragement that pushed me to actually proceed and take the damned job. I would never have consented if I had known she would become this crazed and jealous wife of my co-star after three films. Of course I would never have thought that we'd actually get three films in the can. Hell, I didn't even think I'd get the part of Christian Grey. I certainly am not the dominate male, though brooding and handsome, I have those qualities down to a science, probably have a PhD in brooding, handsome is something I don't quite think I have, but I've been told by enough people that I have it in me. Hell I was nicknamed the "Golden Torso" for some reason.

    I remember the call back audition where I read with Dakota the first time. I can't honesty say I wasn't attracted to her somewhat. I mean hell, he's hot and her body is something to behold. Of course I was a freshly married man and with a baby on the way I knew that I had to behave. Of course I'm also a natural flirt so I couldn't help but tease her a bit.

~ Five Weeks before filming Fifty Shades of Grey ~

    I sit outside in this hallway filled with other stars and wonder why the hell am I even here. Half of these guys are hot men, and they are probably not married and some are younger than I am. Why the fuck am I even doing this. I'm late in the game to be trying my hand at what most people would call "mommy porn pic" but if I land this role so much could really open up for me. I need to really be a man and take care of my family, now that I have a wee one on the way.

    It seems I'm the last one to be called. It's obvious they didn't go in alphabetical order because Dornan is close to the top of the list. Maybe they went in age order. Well I'm surely fucked if that is the case. I don't even want to know why Charlie backed out. Maybe Dakota Johnson is a total bitch. What am I getting myself into. Everything I ate for breakfast is threatening to come up.

    I go to the secretary that has been sitting behind this big ass desk all day taking names and directing men into a little room to let her know that I need to use the facilities and to give me about ten minutes or so. She lets me know that is fine as Erika, Sam and Dakota need a break as well. Shit fuck me running I'm really screwed if they are already tired of men, I have no hope in the world. If I didn't like smoking so much and if it wasn't so bad for my asthma I'd have a damn cigarette. Thank goodness Millie is pregnant and actually not doing that right now.

    Fuck I may have to have a hit from my inhaler I'm working myself into a tizzy. I need to calm my ass down. What I wouldn't do for a shot of Jameson right now. I look at myself in the mirror and take a few deep cleansing breaths. The bathroom smells like, well bathroom. I'm not overly fond of bathroom smells either.

I leave out of the bathroom and go stand by these large windows that overlook LA. I want to focus my breathing and in order to do so I need to concentrate. I find a large palm tree in the distance and focus on it. My contacts are in so my vision is perfect. I imagine I am under the tree relaxing in the sun with a nice large pint of Guinness and a sexy ass bar wench to serve me over and over until I become so pissed I need an Uber to get home. Ahhh yeah that is what I needed.