Pretty Scars

Chapter 1"fifteenth birthday "

3/1/17

What a horrible date... Today officially marks the anniversary of the brainwashed daughter running away or more so making the biggest mistake of her life ,from home .It's been a year since I've seen my Mom or Lily and god do I want to go home to my room and the smell of chocolate chip cookies baking in the oven. That'd be the day I can look forward to . David tells me that in order to move forward I have to accept my past .Trust me I've thought about dialing the number to tell them how much I miss them ,but when it comes to the phone actually being in my hand I start to think the worst and how much they must hate for what I've done .I missed Lily's birthday for god sakes , her fifteen birthday ! The birthday we've been waiting for ,the birthday we planned to get her piercing done like I had done on mine. It was horrible enough that I was gone a year but I broke the sister promise .Lily and I had been best friends since the day we laid eyes on each other .We're not only close due to the one year age Gap. We'd probably be close if we were five years apart ,no we just get each other .We're practically the same person .My mom always did say she had twins .I smile at the thought .I'm used to telling  eachother every detail of everyday ,talking for hours whilst eating hot Cheetos of course , that I write letters to her everyday without ever mailing them out . Occasionally I mail out the letters that update her on how I am always saying the cliche runaway daughter junk .

" I'm okay "
"I love you "
"Sorry for everything "

How is anyone supposed to forgive a person for running out on them ? I could answer that question but that's for another time .Anyway as much as I'd love to ponder on about my pathetic fiasco of a life there's more embarrassment awaiting me .