Divergent "I Still Love You" (Fanfiction)

Things Happen

Chapter Four:

Four

Usually Amar asks help with his police force. I usually go, but today he said I needed time off. I am done with guns, so I usually just stand and act

intimidating as I just do what he asks.

My mother Evelyn has been staying with me. I am an assistant Politician soon to be politician.

My mother hates the idea of throwing my talents away, but holding the thing that made my world break. As Therese had told me "Live by the gun you die by the gun." Lately I have seen that to be true. As Tris had died.

A naucious feeling runs through me And I lean on my couch for support.

I imagine her body, parallel to mine, just as she and I both parted.

Before she had went to save everyone.

To save me.

It makes me hate Caleb,

Even though he is the only part of

Her I have left.

I roar.

I slam my fist into the couch filling the leather into my fist.

"What is going on." My mother says stepping from the kitchen.

The couch slightely shifts as her weight plummets into the coach.

Her hand softly runs back and forth over my spine.

I lean my elbows on my knees and pull forward, digging my hands over my eyes.

"Tell me what is wrong with you,please." She beggs

"I should have stayed with her! I let her die...I promised her I wouldnt let them kill her!" I scream not directly at her, but I assume at myself.

"Everything happens for a reason, Tobias." She says lecturing

I stand up and I point at her

"No..Dont you dare..you of all people cant possibly believe such words, so dont expect you cant just patch this up, cover it up and move on..because its not like that!"

I say pulling myself sitting on my table across from her.

I know she was trying to comfort me,

But it inrages me, to believe that she

Thinks that way.

To just move on from her.

Ill never be able to do that.

I already lost her,

I dont want to lose her memories as well.

Then Id really break.

"Im sorry Tobias, but I cant see..I think you are overreacting, things happen."

She says coldy.

It rips me, on the inside and I feel broken and uneven..and I dont have Tris here anymore to convince me otherwise.

She wouldnt understand, how could someone who never really knew how to love possibly understand.

"The hell they do!" I say harshly

"Things happen everywhere, All the time...Things happen yes! But not everyday your true love dies!

Not everyday things happen where they break who you are..and everything you are! I just wish you could understand.."

I walk around not knowing what to do with myself,

"I dont feel like me anymore I feel harshly, seperated from all things."

I say

"Well...im sorry for intruding on your sob story." She says getting up and walking into the back room.

I grab my jacket and slip my shoes on and leave, slamming the door behind me..I wipe my eyes leaving the further discussion.

I decide Amar might need my help.

Or maybe I need his.