She wasn't loved no matter how many nights she tried to convince herself otherwise it wasn't true. On the contrary Lou, this is true. Your late night thoughts always get the best of you and for what? Just give in. It's the end. Give in. Give into the insecurities and your dark thoughts. Let them roam at night keeping you up. Let them take over again. It's nothing new. You, you won't matter in the end because you aren't loved. Never have and never will be. You will be alone at night with every thought and fear you conjure up at night. Josh doesn't know you exist. Andrew never liked you. Your past never liked you. You are unloveable. Cry yourself to sleep like you did in high school. They won't know you have surrendered yourself because you're one heck of an actor and liar. You claim you can't do both but when it comes to me you do it so well you can almost convince yourself that I'm not real.
Goodbye to your recovering self,
Dark thoughts x.
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RandomMost entries are inspired by songs I'm currently listening to and people. Drummer boy is soon on its way after its hold probably but original ch.1 about drummer boy is in a different book. Also 2/16/2017 is about my concert.
