my soul has awoken with pure silence and sorrow
i finally acknowledge other creatures and their presence
but I also acknowledge my own personal problems
the ones I tried to completely omit from my chaotic mind
the ones I forgot about because of friendly distractions
friends make you forget all the despised grief
they make you feel the endless happiness you have awaited
but afterwards you sulk even more with emptiness
i learned it is difficult to run away from one or all your problems
it is wearisome when you try to ignore their existence
even more when you actually care and think about them
i am still contemplating whether caring about them is better
we cannot control anything except ourselves
if we did we would be unstoppable and indestructible
but when you actually make them disappear
the tensions and worries are finally gone
so are decisions and wild new experiences
existence is horrifically the only thing to blame
is life better with or without problems
without them life is just bland perfection
vast variety of colorless flavorless life stories
swimming in the ocean of thoughts and sentiments
my soul has awoken, now full of thoughtfulness----------------------------------------------
Written during class when my friend was absent

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Painting my Life:a collection of poems
PoetryFrom love to dreams, this book will show thoughts and opinions of mine that have been bottled up in me. These topics have a special value in my heart that will never be replaced. Grab a snack and sit back to read this collection of different emotion...