Have Faith ((Niall Horan-AU)) (Editing)

Chapter 6.

The boy who I've known since we were six years old could not possibly love me. We've been best friends for years, we've done everything together as friends and nothing more. I've never even given him a hint of anything more than friendship? Have I?

"Kylie?" I hadn't realized my eyes were staring at a blank piece of notebook paper, the pencil in my right hand was covered in sweat from the pressure of my grip. 

"Huh?" My eyes wandered up to Caiden's blue ones, which were wide and filled with confusion.

"Please don't tell me you're still thinking about the whole Niall thing?" He sighed heavily before speaking again. "Do you know the answer?"

"Umm, is it B?"

"Nope, Kylie if you don't focus there will be no chance of you passing this test tomorrow."

I groaned and plopped down on the couch. "I know I know, I'm sorry, I'll focus from now on I swear. Keep asking me questions." Caiden just stared at me intently, his fingers tracing over the index cards in his hands. "Please." I begged and put my hands against his, trying to get him to lift the index cards to his face.

"Fine." 

"Thanks." My cheeks flushed a light red and my eyes wandered back down to the floor, hiding my face behind the hair that escaped from behind my ears. 

"Define a tanka." There was silence. "I said define a tanka."

I cleared my throat and laughed. "I know what you said, I just don't know the answer."

"It's a japanese form of poetry... we have a lot of work to do." He shook his head playfully and laughed. 

"This is the first time we have actually had a civil conversation in almost three years. It's cool." His smile faded in a mere second, I mentally face palmed myself. What did I just say? "I, umm, I didn't-"

"It's fine, I uhh, yeah it's cool .. to be talking and not actually yelling at each other or disagreeing. Yeah, I like it." 

I cleared my throat again before speaking. "Yeah, umm, anyways back to work." I nodded and pursed my lips, I'm so stupid.

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"Thanks again for offering to help me, you helped a lot." My eyes wandered to the ground, not wanting to look at the bright smile plastered across Caiden's eyes. 

"It's no problem, just wanted to show you that i've changed, I'm a better person now Kylie, I really have changed." He grabbed my right hand to get my attention, bringing it to his face. "Kylie look at me." My dull brown eyes met his bright blue ones and they went blank. "I truly am, very, so, so sorry. For everything. I'm sorry for the way I treated you, for every thing I did to you. I just want you to know that I care for you. I love you." 

My throat went dry, unable to swallow the liquid that piled in my mouth. I only nodded once and looked at the door, motioning that he needed to leave before we both said something we may regret later. That I may regret later.

He just sighed and agreed to my silent plead. "Bye Kylie." 

I said nothing, I only closed the door behind him once he had both feet out of the door. 

"Why me." I said out loud, wondering why the most complicated things always manage to make their way into my life. 

A loud groan made its way up my throat and out of my mouth. I plopped myself on the couch yet again and reached for the phone that was sitting on the couch side table. Sighing, I unlocked the phone, noticing a missed call and a new message.