Today I was okay but when I was in a group chat with friends, one guy in there told everyone that he had a girlfriend and I got kinda jealous because I liked the guy so he called me out in front of everyone.
I didn't mean to get jealous because I want to get over my crush on him.. considering my mom says I'm not aloud to date in high school. It hurt me when he said he had a girlfriend.. he 'liked' me back but I guess that isn't true. I'm just being used.
What ever happened to "I'll wait for you"?
Did it just stop because you found a hot girl?
I'm sorry for believing that I could have love and happiness in a relationship..
I've been having a difficult last couple of weeks. Living in fear and self hate.
But today hurt.. a lot.
Jazzy~
